Our Mistake (Laurmani)(COMPLETED)

Adjusting

Normani's  P.O.V

After searching mine and Lauren's
houses the police called me to inform me that they do suspect foul play. They searched her car and noticed her tires were slashed. Not something that normally happens. They also found her cell phone in the grass in my backyard. As a part of their investigation, I had to be questioned. They questioned some of her colleagues, our friends and even her parents. She isn't really in the media because they aren't really interested in a missing adult, normally just a child.

She's been missing four days now and every day is harder the last. Maya has been really quiet. She does her homework and stays to herself for the rest of the day. She even ignores Leo for the most part and anytime I see her with him, she looks at him with sadness. He has to remind her of Lauren and even he is sad. He's not the loud, playful, yapping puppy that he was before Lauren left. All he does is quietly walk around the house or lies down somewhere.

I thought it would be a good idea to go back to work., if only for a distraction. For the most part, work is the only time I do get to distract myself because when I'm alone in my office, I can block out the world. It has been hard to focus on other things though. The words foul play puts my stomach in knots. Foul play, to me, means murder. It's like they told me she's been murdered and now they're just looking for a body. That's the one thought I've been trying to stay clear of but...How can I?

Even if it's...if she's...I can't even say the word in my own head. If she's...gone...I still won't stop looking. I know the police only actively search for a certain amount of time so when they stop, I'll hire a private investigator if they haven't found her. I know how missing persons cases most likely end. They don't find them. All I can do is wait and that is killing me.

Dinah has been trying to get me to smile, laugh or just become happy generally. Nothing works and I appreciate the effort but it's pointless. The only positive thing going on is me being pregnant. This baby and Maya are the only two things that keep me going. If it weren't for them I would just sleep but even then it's not peaceful. The dreams that I would normally deem as nice, are now nightmares.

Last night I dreamt of Lauren. It was a timeline of our life, from when we met to now and then us in the future. Married with our two children. Maya had grown up to be a doctor and we had a son. He didn't have a name yet but he was in college. We were together just having dinner but then as I held her hand, I felt the pressure becoming lighter. I looked at her and she started to become transparent. We all went into a panic but Lauren just sat there. Her face emotionless as she fades. Maya started to cry hysterically and our unnamed son got up and tried to touch Lauren's arm but his hand just phased through her. Lauren looked at me and mouthed 'I love you' before disappearing completely. I woke up a sobbing mess but I had Dinah and Ally there to comfort me. I just wish I could tell her I love her one last time.

It's lunch time but I'm not hungry. Ally made me promise to eat something so I buy a hotdog on my way to the park. I only take two bites out of it before I throw it away. I sit on a bench and look out into the small park. It's pretty much empty and since it's still cold outside, it's understandable. A few people walk past but I barely register it. I'm too far inside my head and when I hear my name being called, I am startled back to reality.

"Sorry." A voice says. I finally register the face and say,

"Ty?" He smiles at me and sits down,

"Yeah. You okay?" He asks and I sigh.

"What's wrong?" He asks,

"It's Lauren."

"Trouble in paradise?"

"She's gone..." I say while trying to hold back my tears,

"She left?"

"No...I...I don't know. She's just...gone." I wipe my eyes and he pulls me into a hug. I let him and cry into his shoulder. He rubs my back and stays silent as I cry. I finally stop and pull away from him, wiping my tears.