Our Mistake (Laurmani)(COMPLETED)

Months

Normani's  P.O.V

I'm a three months pregnant now. Lauren has been gone for a month and a half. Dinah suggested that I make an appointment for Maya with the therapist that she takes the twins too, to deal with the divorce. I've been thinking about it and it seems like a good idea. Maybe a professional can get her to talk and help her with her sadness because I know that's where this anger is stemming from. She has been a lot more calm recently. I told her about the baby and she was really happy about it. She told me to make it a girl but I told her it doesn't work like that.

I've spent the last few weeks just trying to get back to normal but it's hard when apart of your normal is gone. Even when Lauren and I weren't together, we talked daily. The thought of her leaving me crosses my mind more often than not now. Maybe I should just accept that she's gone. That maybe she just wanted to disappear but that just doesn't seem like something she'd do. Maybe it's like one of those TV shows, like 'Who the bleep did I marry?' and I don't know her as well as I thought. I told Dinah that and she started to laugh.

"It's not funny." I say as I throw some popcorn at her. Today she came over to hang out. Ally and Lucy took the kids to a movie so it's just us.

"It isn't but it is just a little. We all know Lauren and Allyson says this isn't something she would do. If she was going to leave, she would at least tell someone." Dinah Jane says and I sigh.

"I just don't know how to not think about it. It's on my mind every waking second and in my dreams. I just want to know she's okay." Dinah nods and pats my knee.

"You just have to...hope for the best and wait. Thinking about it constantly and stressing out isn't good for you or the baby."

"I know that but I can't help it."

"Maybe you should find a support group or something? Maybe that would help."

"A support group? Aren't you supposed to be my support?"

"I am but I haven't gone through this before. You could benefit from talking to someone who may have gone through the same thing." I shake my head and keep watching the movie.

Where am I? Why am outside in my pajamas? I look around me and there's nothing but trees. Is it fall? There are leaves everywhere and I see a lake in front of me. The wind blows and I hear Normani coming from behind me in a whisper. I quickly turn around but nothing and no one is there. I hear my name being called again from the left. I turn my head and tighten my hold on the sweater around me. When did I get a sweater? I feel myself moving forward, towards the whisper and I feel the crunch of the leaves beneath my feet. The wind picks up, blowing my hair in my face as I walk.

"Mani."

I hear again as I keep walking. I walk past bare trees and step over tree stumps with my muddy feet. I don't know where I'm going but I can't stop walking. As I walk the whisper is louder and the wind gets even stronger. I come to a large tree that's lying on the ground. The wind hasn't stopped and neither has whispers and it feels like they are both pushing me to look to my right and when I do, everything ceases. I can hear nothing as I look at a row of trees along the lake. I can't breath or move or talk or thing because...there's a hand. A pale hand connected to a pale arm connected to a pale body...that's behind the trees wrapped in a white sheet. The body is face down and the sheet covers it's face. Their hair is matted and bloody, all over their head but that's all I can see. The wind starts again and it moves the sheet against the dead body. It becomes stronger and the sheet starts to uncover the face...it's

I jump awake and almost fall off the couch. I'm covered in sweat and, my heart is pounding against my chest. My stomach is in knots and my vision is blurred by tears. Dinah looks at me with panicked eyes and asks if I'm okay but I shake my head. That starts the flow of tears and now I can't stop them. I go to wipe my eyes and notice my hands are shaking. I cry harder when I feel Dinah's arms around me because that dream felt so real. It wasn't but it felt... I didn't need to finish the dream to know who I was looking at...I didn't.