Guilty of my Jealousy (Jeffmads)

Ch.3-Hurtful

A/N: so this will be the last update for a week, sorry doods..

        James laid in bed, his head aching from all the tears he shed earlier. He still couldn't believe that Thomas had cared about him. Even though he probably didn't. James still believed. He turned on his side and thought about Thomas.

Until he remembered Alex.

He stopped smiling and bit his lip in worry. He didn't want Alex to find anything out. James didn't want to make him mad, then he'd hurt him. He closed his eyes and thought about Thomas again. Just Thomas.

He soon fell asleep..

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James woke up and yawned. He stretched and got out of bed. He put on a pair of dark navy blue leggings and a grey crop top. It had a little pineapple in the corner. He brushed his hair and put on his daily dose of makeup. His wing and matt lipstick. He smiled at himself in the mirror. He had forgotten about all the drama that lurked outside his room. He opened his door and walked to the kitchen for coffee.

He saw Thomas already making some. Thomas looked to James and smiled widely. His cheeks dusted red.

"Hey James, how'd you sleep?" Thomas asked sweetly. James remembered wjat had happened last night. He looked away in shame.

"Yeah... I slept okay-" he mumbled. Thomas walked over to him and hugged him. He rubbed his back comfortingly. James hugged back and cuddled into his chest. He knew this wouldn't last.

"Please don't cut anymore..for me?" James choked on his breath. Why would Thomas ask that. Did he care that much.

'Of course he doesn't care, he just doesn't wanna have to comfort your lame ass..' The voice in back of James head retorted.

James started to cry. "W-why do you care s-so much?.." He cried out. He clung to Thomas tighter.

"Because I care about you James. I have and always will. It hurts me that you hurt yourself like that.."James cried even louder.

"B-but I'm not worth worrying about.." James choked out. He looked up at Thomas with smeared makeup and puffy eyes. He knew he looked ugly and he hated it. Thomas shook his head, his curls going with.

"You are so worth worrying about.. You mean everything to me Jemmy. I don't know what I'd do without you in my life.." James looked down and sobbed.

"No I don't.. You have Alex and you need to worry about him. I'm just ugly and annoying, I don't deserve anything nice in life." James said plainly and looked up to Thomas again.

Thomas frowned and held James chin. "You're beautiful in every way, and definitely not annoying.. You're cute and sweet, you make everything better when you're around.. And honestly I don't want to worry about Alex.." Thomas paused and moved closer to James face. James stayed still and tried to process every word that was coming out of Thomas's mouth.

"I wanna worry about you-" Thomas leaned in and kissed James. James was surprised but kissed back. He was in pure bliss. They kissed soft and sweet. Something the two had wanted for a while.

The front door opened but neither noticed. Alex walked in and looked around. He saw the two in the kitchen and became furious. He walked back to the door and shut it quietly. He knocked.

Thomas and James backed away abruptly and both turned red. James smiled but went to go get a coffee mug. His lavender one. Thomas walked to the door. He opened it.

"Heyyy!" Alex said way too happy.

"Oh hi babe.." Thomas didn't want to be with Alex anymore. He never really did. Alex walked past him into the kitchen and have a death glare at James.

"Hello, James-" He spat out like he said something disgusting. James gulped and waved. He made his coffee and sat at the island on a stool. He went on the Mac that was there.

Alex looked to Thomas.

"Hey Thomas? Can you get me something from the store? I really want some chocolate..." Alex said sweetly. Thomas sighed and nodded.

Thomas walked out the door, leaving Alex and James alone. James hoped nothing bad was going to happen to him.

Alex walked over to him and knocked him off the stool. He spilt his hot coffee and James winced. He sat up and fiddled with his soaked clothes.

"Are you fucking kidding me Madison.. You had to go be the little slut you are and kiss my boyfriend.. MINE!!" Alex yelled. James flinched. "I swear to god, you're gonna pay for this fucking shit.." Alex walked around into the kitchen and grabbed a kitchen knife. He came back over to James and laughed dryly.

He bent down and grabbed James arm. James tried to pull back but Alex smacked him across the face. James whimpered and didn't fight back. Alex lifted up James shirt. He laughed and shook his head.

"You're such a fat ass I swear-" He took the knife and dragged it across James stomach. Red dripping out.

James screamed in pain, Alex put a hand over his mouth. James felt tears fall as he trembled. He had never felt this much pain. Alex just laughed.

"You fucking weak bitch, can't you even handle this?" He took the knife and dragged it deep down James leg. It tore his pant leg and cut deep.

He tried to scream but couldn't. He sobbed and choked on tears. He wished Thomas would save him, but he had to save himself. But he was so scared.

Alex was so far into this crazy tangent he didn't know how long had passed. He was an idiot and forgot to lock the door.

It opened.

Alex was cutting against James collar bone. Light cuts-but they still bled. James was starting to get dizzy. Red surrounding his thoughts again.

Thomas walked in and dropped the Snickers he bought. He froze and looked at what was happening.

"ALEX!! What the hell are you doing!??" He ran over to James and pushed Alex off. Alex shook his head and looked to Thomas- He didn't know what he was doing.

"I don't know.." He looked scared. Thomas looked at James, he started to sob. He grabbed his shirt and wiped some blood but it wasn't enough.

"Call an ambulance Alex-Now!!" Thomas snapped. Alex grabbed his phone and called 911. Thomas hung over James body and sobbed. He held him and caressed his face. James looked up at him and weakly smiled. Tears fell down his face..

"I love you-"

James blacked out.

A/N: I know, its angsty.. But I might do a double update so yaaay..