5 Seconds Of Summer (5SOS) Imagines & One Shots

Building Up (Calum Hood)

 -Written by @louisasa1d-

“You're going out again?” You asked Calum as he was getting his coat out of the closet. Calum was going to go clubbing with “Lukey”…again. It’s not that you disliked Luke Hemmings , its just that Calum always left to go hang out with him and his group of friends, leaving you alone in the flat.

 He asked you to move in with him about a month ago, and he had been gone almost every night since then. He would always come staggering in in the early morning hours, usually around 2 or 3 and you were beginning to get tired of it.

 “Yeah, Luke's  taking me to this club called The Nest.” He said, shrugging into his coat.

 “Well, can't you stay home tonight?” You asked, attempting to get Calum to stay home with you. “I mean you work practically all day, what with rehearsals and interviews and you're leaving to go on tour again in a few weeks and I just thought that you could take one night off from “Lukey” and stay here with me.” You explained further trying to get him to see your side of things, standing up from the couch.

 Apparently he didn’t.

“When I’m on the road, I don’t have a lot of time to see my friends. I just want to spend some time with them before I go. I didn’t think it was a big deal, Y/N.” He said a little to harshly.

You really hadn’t been all that angry, until this point.

“When you're on the road,” You started in a mocking tone, using the sentence he had started with. “You don’t have a lot of time to see me either."

 “We live together!” He practically shouted, throwing his hands up in the air.

“And how often do you see me, Calum? How often do you actually sit down and talk to me?” You asked. It was a pretty valid question. “You basically say ‘hi’ to me in the morning and then leave. Say ‘hi’ when you get home, and then leave again! I didn’t know that it was such a hardship to spend some time with your girlfriend.”

“And I didn’t know that when I asked you to move in, you would get so clingy! Just stop being a bitch, and let me enjoy my night.”

Okay, that hurt. You took a step back and just looked at him. Usually when Calum came home drunk after a night out with Luke, he would say all kinds of things. Some not so nice, but you dismissed them because he was drunk. This time, he wasn’t. He hadn’t even left yet. He had no excuse.

You just slowly shook your head and said “Yeah, you know what? Enjoy your night. Sorry to be such a bother.” In a quiet voice. You turned around and began to walk up the stairs to your room.

 “Look, Y/N, I’m sorry, okay? I didn’t mean that.”

You turned around and gave him your best watery smile. You stuck your hand up, signaling him to stop. “No, its fine. Have a good time". You said and continued up the stairs and into your shared room.

Calum obviously took that as a sign to leave because moments later you hear the door shut. With tears freely streaming down your face, you packed an overnight bag and decided to go stay with one of your friends who lived a few blocks away.

 You grabbed a pen and a piece of paper and sat down. You began writing:

Dear Calum,

I know that being called a bitch is no reason for someone to leave, but this has been building up ever since I decided to move in with you and I think we both know that. I’m sorry that, no I’m not sorry. I’m not sorry that I wanted to spend time with my boyfriend. If that makes me clingy, then so be it. I love you Calum, but this just isn’t working out. It hasn’t for a while now. So, I’ve decided to leave and stay with a friend. I’ll be round in a couple of days to get my stuff. I hope you had fun tonight.

Y/N

*5 days later*

Calum's POV:

I'm so stupid. I lost her. I lost her just to go out for the night. When I left that night I couldn't drink, I didn't want to come home drunk and see her upset face so I stayed sober. 

*flash back to that night* 

It had been a boring night. No drinks and no silly games. I was going to go home and spend time with her, cuddle and apologise. I walked up the steps to the house, seeing all the lights off I unlocked the door quietly incase she was asleep upstairs. Closing the door behind me I turn on the hall light. I go to put my keys on the glass hallway table. I looked down to see a white sheet of paper with her scrawny handwriting on it, blotches of ink splayed where water had touched and merged it. I pick up the piece of paper with my name on the folded half. I opened it.

Dear Calum,

 I know that being called a bitch is no reason for someone to leave, but this has been building up ever since I decided to move in with you and I think we both know that. I’m sorry that No I’m not sorry. I’m not sorry that I wanted to spend time with my boyfriend. If that makes me clingy, then so be it. I love you Calum, but this just isn’t working out. It hasn’t for a while now. So, I’ve decided to leave and stay with a frie-

I couldn't finish it, I broke down and cried sliding down the wall that I had used for support. 

*present* 

I sit there on her side of the bed, clutching the soft pale blue jumper she left behind.

"No Calum. You need to get up and look for her" I try and re-assure myself. Slowly I peel myself from the bed, not bothering to look in the mirror knowing I look shit - I walk down the hall in darkness. Picking up my keys I walk out the door, locking it behind me.  

I have decided I'm going to go to Luke's house, he always knows what to do in every situation. He might even know where Y/N is, the two were always close.  

Walking along the gravel path upto his door I lift my hand to knock when I hear a girl giggling. I slowly lower my hand down and creep along the cream coloured wall to his window. Looking in I see her and Luke running around with buttercream all over her face. I scowl. They are both laughing. Luke grabs her waist in one hand and smears more butter icing onto her shoulder. She turns to face him, slowly the stop laughing. Luke starts to lean in, as does she. They are kissing. 

I turn away tears building up, the cork in my throat putting pressure on my voice box. I choke back a sob. I slide down the wall the tears falling freely. The pain unbearable. 

I start to sing to myself the song that was ours "love runs deep, deeper than the darkest sea , so drop your guard and love me" tears start to rack my body. I'm sat there for a while ... I don't know how long... All I know that it is dark.     

I pick myself back up and put my hands inside my pocket, I feel a small delicate object; I pull it out to reveal a small red rose with her name on it. I turn it over to see my writing "I'm sorry, I love you". I look at the door and back to the rose. I place the rose down on the door step and look up at the white door once more. 

"I love you" I whisper into the dark. I turn and pull my hood up as I walk away. Forever.