Grown With Love

Insecurities

Things become silence for awhile making Sungjae to feel even more uncomfortable. His hands start to sweat and his heart is wildly beating inside there. He was annoyed with Joy constants pushing him with her questions and out of nowhere makes him blurted his biggest secret to her, which he regrets immediately. He wasn't planning on telling her anyway, not until he was sure with his feeling but the girl just have to make him talk.

He took a glance at her, " Why are you so quiet ? Are you not going to tease me or something ? " " I .. I .. " He noticed that she keep on clearing her throat with her eyes looking at anywhere else except on him. " Sooyoung-ah ... " " I think we should leave. It's getting dark. " And she hurriedly taking her bag before walk out the door, leaving Sungjae in dumbfounded.

" Sooyoung-ah, wait up. " She heard him but she don't want to stop and keep walking until she reach the school gate where she then being held by him. " Yah, I told you to wait for me. " He was panting but still didn't let her go. " Why are you .. " " Hyun is here that's why I'm in hurry. I gotta go. " Lightly, she swatted his hand before walked towards her car that arrived just on the time. She was about to head in the car when he once again held her hand, " Sooyoung-ah, about what I said just now ... " " Let's talk about this tomorrow huh ? I need to go now. " And with that, she quickly get in the car, " Let's go Hyun. " " What about Sungjae ? " " I said go. Now ! "

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Sungjae had been bothered with questions along his way home, thinking whether his confession should be brought up or not, why does he got such reactions from Joy and why even in the first place that he worried Joy would fall for him even though he was sure that she's just playing with him. He was so sure that she will never look at him as a guy so why did he bother to clarify it to her ?

These thoughts has been playing in his minds until someone took his daze away. It was her, the one that he thinks he might have crush on, were right now smiling looking at him. He noticed that she held a plastic bag, probably things from the convenience store. " Seems like you did some shopping. " She smiled, the smile that only makes her looks more pretty. " Hi Sungjae, and yes, I did some shopping. " " Mind if I help you with it ? " He offered a hand which she gladly accepts.

Their walk are silence but not that they uncomfortable with it, but Sungjae just have to break it. " Lately, we've been seeing each other quite often. I mean, it's hard to see you around at times like this. You will always busy with your practice and all. " " At least you still have Joy to keep you company while I, hmm only have my violin. Like you said, busy practicing. " Sungjae just chuckle, looking how adorable she is making faces while talking about her tired life.

Both of them were almost at their house when suddenly Sungjae stops her, staring at her face before handling her things. She was surprised when he held her hand, " Sohyun-ah, I know you are tired and all but just remember one thing, you do something that you love the most so it is worth of tiring. Just so you know, if you need somebody to cheer you up, I can always help you. So don't feel down because of it. "

She took the moment to have a good look on his face, admire it before she nodded to whatever that he says. " Thanks Sungjae, for always be the Sungjae I knew. I will keep your words. So whenever I need you, you have to be there for me. You get that ? " He laughed at how serious she can be, " Arasso. "

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She sat on her bed, doing nothing but looking lost. What was the feeling she have she thought. She want to cry but seems like it's hard for tears to fall. She wanna feel angry but knowing it wasn't her place to feel that way, she held back. She was frustrated with his confession and annoyed at how dense he could be for not realising her feeling. But no matter how frustrating it is, she knew things will just get back to her. It was her fault for not letting him know at the first place and it was her fault to even thinking that he might fall for a girl like her. She should have known when the first time she caught his eyes on that girl, she should just let it go.