Protecting Rosalie |discontinued|

Downhill

*2 months later*

       Thrashing. I'm thrashing helplessly in my sleep and I can't seem to wake up. These nightmares have been been haunting me since I have shifted. They are trying to tell me something but I can't grasp it.
" wake up ! Wake up ! Wake up!" I hear someone say in my ear while shaking me from my dreams. I sit up quickly , drenched in sweat. I no longer get the tingly feeling around rider and I'm slowly becoming uneasy. I don't like it. I'm suppose to feel beyond happy with my mate. Lately things just don't seem right. We've been together for a couple months now. I've started my classes at the pack college and since then I've felt weird. Rider throws his arms up angrily.
" why can't we have one night Rosalie? Just one without your stupid nightmares" he says exasperated.
" I'm sorry rider , I am. I don't mean to have them" I say looking up at him sadly. Isn't your mate suppose to comfort you in times like this? He has become someone completely different. I don't understand it. He sighs and looks at me annoyed.
" I know but you need to learn to control it. I'm going to the other room" he says grabbing his pillow and leaves. Good. I wanted the bed to myself anyways. Although I know it isn't true. Even the pack has noticed his changes and they look at me with sympathetic glances. I hate it. I don't know how much longer I can take. It's only five in the morning but I decide to get up anyways to help assist with the pack breakfast. Everyone here loves me and I love them as well.
Heading downstairs I see one of my favorite people. Mrs Cathy. Yes that's right. She knew all along about my genes. Although she had no clue my father had gone full rouge.
" good morning sweetheart " she says pulling me for a hug. " another restless night hmm?" I shake my head at her as I crack some eggs in a bowl and start whisking them.
" dear , if I may say something?" She asks suddenly.
" of course " I say waiting for her to continue.
" have you ever payed close attention to the dreams?" She asks curiously.
" I try but sometimes I can't remember them , why?"
" well , the thing is" she pauses nervously " your mother before she passed had this gift and she could talk to the moon goddess through her dreams. It started as nightmares , she was trying to warn her. But you must not tell anyone , it is a very rare gift and bad things could happen " she says the last part urgently. My mother was special and I knew that but how special I didn't know until now.
" you think?" I say and she understood what I meant.
" I do rose , and you need to be careful" she says. I take her advice and don't ask anything else. This is a conversation for some where more private. My head begins to overload with thoughts. What could be going on ? I sigh and Mrs. Cathy pats my back lovingly. It's okay dear. Come to my home tonight if you will , I would like to do some research" she says and I nod my head quickly.
" I'll be there around six if that's okay?" I can't wait to get out of this stupid house!
" of course dear I'll see you then!" She says as she flip the pancakes into the air and on to a very expensive looking plate. Boy do those look good. My mouth is watering just from the smell. I bite my lip and tell Mrs Cathy I'm going to go take a walk.
      The only place I get peace anymore is in the woods. I only just met my mate weeks ago and he has suddenly changed. I'm seeing his true self. The man I thought I loved is no more and has been filled with hatred for me and I can fathom it. What did I do so wrong? I've tried to be a good Luna to this pack. I have tried to make him a happy man. Then the dreams began to come and I couldn't even get peace then anymore.
     Slowly and carefully I climb up the tree , being up so high they can't smell my scent here in case any one comes looking. I hide in the leafiest part of the tree and rest my head against the trunk. I cannot come up with any thought as to what is happening to my mate. The mate bond we have has felt weak lately and it's making me grow tired. It's literally draining me. Soon my wolf begs to come out and stretch her legs. I hop down from the tree and shift in mid air.
      My wolf form is an all white wolf. I know what you're thinking , how boring. Well it's not because it's so iridescent when I'm in the sunlight my fur like like a piece of opal. My eyes shine a brighter green and I can't help but to feel so powerful and beautiful. As we run through the forest , feeling the earth beneath our paws I can't help but to howl in happiness. The care free feeling I always get when I'm out with my wolf. I internally smile and run a bit harder.
      I'm panting at this point and I shift back into my human form. I trudge my way back to the pack house and make it up the stairs to our master room. Opening the doors I find rider in there and he looks up at me.
" I'm sorry for being an asshole" he says to me and I nod.
" okay" I say. I don't want to forgive him quite yet.
" do you forgive me" the way he asks is almost a threatening tone. I gulp.
" o-of course I do rider your my m-mate" I hate saying that word about him now. It makes my throat burn.
" good " he nods at me and come over to embrace me.
" rider , if it's okay I'm going to Mrs. Cathys to catch up for a bit. I miss her" he pursed his lips to thinks for a second.
" okay , how long will you be out?" He asks and I am not really sure so I over estimate.
" I'll be there at six and will be home at 10 on the dot" that should give us plenty time to research at least a little. He nods , deep in thought. I shrug out of his hold and begin to get ready. Throwing on a simple set of shorts and a shirt I begin to make my way out of the house.
" not dressed like that" rider says disapprovingly. I look down at myself and can't help but to roll my eyes.
" I'll wear what I want rider you aren't my father" I say in an annoyed tone.
" cause your fathers fucking dead" he mumbles and I can't help but to stop breathing for a second. Did he just really say that? I know my father beat me , but he didn't know what he was doing. When my mother died it made him rouge and no one knew. Usually that doesn't happen if a mate is widowed.
" fuck you" I spit out and slam the door behind me. I hear a loud noise that sounded like he punched it but all I do is roll my eyes. I'm fine with him being ignorant. I walk to Mrs. Cathys small house in the woods just a little down from the pack house. I don't knock anymore , I just go in and she is in the kitchen making coffee.
    " hey dear " she says with a warm smile.
  " hey there" I say taking a cup from her with both hands and sip it.
   " so what exactly are we researching?" I ask curiously.
   " this behavior from rider isn't normal Rose , mates don't act like that it just isn't heard of. His mood swings aren't even of a normal bipolar disorder. Something has happened" she says taking out an old large book and wipes the dust off of the front. She puts a few odd ingredients into a bowl and a light shoots out from it and twists in the air.
Ask me what you seek as only I can take a peek
Did that? That book just talked! Mrs Cathy begins to speak in a very authoritative tone.
" show me the mate bond section " it begins to unfold showing her the beginning of the section.
" show me the breaking of a mate bond" she says and it turns two more pages.
" anything interested yet?" I ask curiously
" it says here an act of betrayal can set off the beginning of a breaking of a bond. As well as a spell from only a powerful witch or a case of rouge" she says thoughtfully.
   " what could it be ? What could it be" she murmurs tapping her finger across her lips.
   We sit and talk for an hour or so and I am feeling tired so I decide to go home.  I'll be back tomorrow around noon to finish our research. An act of betrayal? Certainly he wouldn't harm me in such a way? I begin to make my way into the pack house and I see a few worrisome glances. I shrug it off dragging myself up the stairs and suddenly as I open the door I feel my heart shatter into several unfixable pieces..