2 Week Later
Charlotte's P.O.V
I was back to my normal self now and me and Gerard were really close. Today was soppost to be the start of a heatwave and for once, the news was right as it was 30 degress outside. I put on my black shorts, a 30 Seconds to Mars vest that said YES THIS IS A CULT, my hi purple converse and my vans bag. This was the irst time in 3 years that I had nothing covering my wrists other that a bit of foundation. Most of my scars were fading as I hadnt cut in a month, since Gerard saw them.
I went downstairs and Gerard in some realy short blue shorts, lo blue converse, green ankle socks and a beige shirt unbuttoned a bit so you could see his chest and the sleves rolled up. He looked really fit and stupid at the same time. Mikey was wearing some grey shorts that were reasonalble legnth, a plain black vest and some lo black converse.
"You look funny in shorts" I smiled/laughed at Gerard and he pouted.
"So do you!" He said in his defence
"Mine are still black! Your wearing no black!" I said smiling
"I dont alwas wear black" he said and got up and so did Mikey
"He does" Mikey whispered into my ear and I laughed and Mikey smiled at me. Gerard just looked confused. Today we were going to get the train down to brighton and then go to the beach. I was scared about getting on the train but Gerard knew this and said he would keep me safe, and that I had to always be sat down. We went into town and got on the train and paid for our tickets and then we sat down. I was sat next to Gerard and across from us was Mikey. Mikey was on his phone texting Frank, Bob and Ray in a group conversation. As the train started to move, I stiffened up and closed my eyes. Gerard noticed and put his hand under the table with mine and held it. My eyes shot open but Gerard just squeezed my hand and smiled.
"Its so warm!" Mikey moaned
"Shut up Mikes. We all know that!" Gerard said and thn sudenly I started to think about deprssion and suicide and it made my arms itch. So, Im bipolar but ive never told anyone. I didnt want to be bipolar. Only my mum knows, I made her not tell. have stabaliser tablets but refuse to take them becuase Gerard once said that its what makes you you and anti-depressiants take that away from you so on that note I refused to take them but Gerard doesnt know that. My smile turned into a frown and I let go of Gerards hand and crossed my arms on the table and put my head in them.
"Erm, you OK Char?" Mikey asked. My dad used to call me Char. I swallowed the tears back and said a muffled yes.
"Depressed I think" I heard Gerard whisper to Mikey and I shot up and stared at him.
"I am not depressed Gerard! Dont even say th-" I almost shouted at him untill 2 teenage girls walked over.
"Erm can we have a photo with you two please! Were big fans of MCR!" The one with blonde hair said. They probobly wernt real fans. They looked too fake. The one with red hair just stared at me.
"Why were you shouting at Gerard!?" The red head asked and I laughed
"Because Im his mum" I said sarcastical and even Gerard sniggered at that.
WWait! Are you staying with her while your mum and dad have split?" The blonde asked and Mikey nodded. Her eyes widened and they both took a photo of me.
"Fuck off!" Isaid and put my had back on the table as the girls and boys talked. They were asking my name and if I lived in a box and stuff. I kept laughing at the dumb stuff the blonde was saying. She was asking questions like if my house was dirty and it just made me laugh. I was still depressed though and I knew that and I just wanted to go back home now, I didnt care about the beach, I want my blades. I pulled out my earphones and my phone from my bag and put them in. I put on My Chemical Romance ~ The Light BehindYour Eyes. It was one of my favourite songs. I sat up and lent against the wall of the train looking at the stupid fake fans with my legs on the seat. Eventually, they walked away and left us alone. I had my music on max volume so they could both probobly hear it. Mikey noticed and started to mouth the words and the Gerard noticed aswell and then they were both mouthing the words so I changed the song to Welcome To The Black parade. And they started to mouth that. Well I think Gerard was acctually singing it.
We pulled into Brighton station thing and we got off and walked toward the beach. Gerard kept brusing his hand on mine and it was really annoying me. Eventually he just caught it and held it but I pulled back. Mikey was on his phone walking infront of us so he wasnt paying attention. H walked closer to my side and whipered in my ear "Whats up with you?" It was in a sweet and comferting voice so I answered.
"I just want to die" I admitted and Gerard pressed a sweet kiss to my cheek to my cheek. I heard giggles and turned around to see those two girls from the train had been following us and had probobly got pictures.
"Just ignor them" He said and took my hand again and I let him. Fangirl me would be freaking out right now but depressed me didnt want to. When we got the the beach we just sat on the sand and talked untill about 4 o'clock and we decided to go back home. We were sat on the train again but this time I was sat on my own as Mikey and Gerard were sart next to each other. I had my earphons in again and I was listening to Alone Together ~ Fall Out Boy. I wasnt a massive FOB fan but I was. I was facing Gee and Mikes but was paying no attension to them. Haha I just acctualy called them that. I smiled to myself but I probobly looked like and idiot so I out my head on the table. Make it even better then.
Gerards P.O.V
Me and Mikey were talking about Charlotte. We wondered if she was depressed or what. I decided I would ring her mum and ask. I found her numbre and dialed it.
"Hello?" Laura said
"Hi Laura, Its Gerard" I said
"Oh, hi Gerard! Whats up?" She said
"Erm, I was just wondering if Charlotte is depressed or anything becuase she said to me she wants to die but she was really happy befor that" I said and she sighed
"Well, Im not suppost to tell you this becuase no fmily knos apart from me and her becaus eshe hates me telling people but because you two seem close I guess I will tell you. Charlotte is bipolar and she hates it. She refuses to take medicine for it because you said in an interview that it makes you you. She has a tatoo of :(: on her hip which is a bipolar sign."
"Ok. Thanks Laura" I said and hung up.
"Well?" Mikey said
"Shes bipolar" i said not loud enough for her to hear but she must have heard and ripped her earphones out.
"What!" She shouted
