Improbable

Ten

I wanted to stay home, unmoving for many months, until the school year ended. But I couldn't. Stupid attendance call and parents. Facing Ethan would be tough knowing how I can't stop thinking of someone else. At the same time, that someone else is hard to think about because they're still heartbroken. I get the feeling Jared is still in love with that girl. That girl could still be out there and I feel evil because I can't stop thinking of her as competition that could win if they wanted. Which she could. She was only a kid when she left. How could she be responsible for leaving? I bet he'd recognise her in a heartbeat if she passed him in the street. I've got nothing.

I throw on a pair of taupe jeggings, a grey t-shirt and white sneakers. The day was warm and a bit bright, unlike my future. I didn't even bother brushing my hair. In my opinion, it looks better when I don't try because me plus trying equals disaster, believe me.

The first person I see is the last person I want to see. Lioness on the prowl for fresh meat out the front of the school. I have to climb stairs to get to her, which isn't my goal. My goal is to get past her and her bullshit. Believe me, it's hard to manoeuvre around such a big pile of crap. Especially when the crap has legs and uses its mouth to produce more shit than it already has collected.

Enough shit talk.

"Hey," a nonchalant greeting catches me off guard.

"Hey," I reply reaching for the door. Please, please, please be done talking shit.

"NIce bird's nest."

Okay, that was tamer than the usual, but it's still shit. You let me down Lioness. You let me down.

Jared is by the classroom door when I reach him. His eyes are the same, no change.

How can someone be so important and yet not hold you as an impacter? I feel insignificant to him. It's shittier than the Lioness's worst shit talk. God, I have to stop calling her that nickname. What am I? Writing an offensive children's book?

"Hey," I hear a croaky voice say, and turn to see Jacob looking at me. At me. Me.

"What's wrong?"

His eyes glaze. "Shit just never stops happenin', you know?"

"What happened?" I step closer, full of concern. This isn't about her.

Jared gulps. "My parents are getting a divorce."

Shit. This boy has it hard.

A/N: TBC :D Hey guys, remember to vote. But more importantly just enjoy! I know I'm shit at this, but YOLO. Live and learn.

MV is Openside "I Feel Nothing". The song gives me those contradictory vibes where in actual fact I feel all sorts of emotions from it. What do you think of it?