-Holy mother of God! - Jack ran up to Mary and kissed her - Thank you so much, I love you.
Jack stood in front of Mary for at least 2 minutes saying nothing at all because she was not paying attention to him. She was with her eyes on something else, something beyond perfect. Finnegan was sitting like 2 metres away from her. He was staring at the nothing itself trying to avoid her presence; you could say he was feeling like crap and his tears were about to burst out of his eyes. Yeah. That was it. He.. He felt so shitty when they got into the plane without her.
Maybe Finn wasn't a really sensitive person... perhaps he didn't demonstrate his feeling but he does have them; and he did feel hurt when she cancelled the trip for her. After the first kiss he gave he, he knew he had feeling for her, but he also knew he shouldn't have been feeling all of those. They were friends and nothing more. She liked Max and not him. She wanted something else. Something more romantic or more dedicated and he couldn't give that to her, but Max could and he did. Several times were the ones that Finn found Mary opening a gift at the office with a little card with an inscription that read "M.C." and also many times he wasn't able to ask her out because she was having dinner with Max.
It was jealousy. Jealousy is indeed a poor medium to secure love, but it is a secure medium to destroy one's self-respect. But for being jealous of their "relationship", he had to had feeling for her; and that was what he had been denying for almost 9 months. He deny the fact that she had captured her attention and that he could think of nothing else but her and ways to compliment her and tell her how beautiful she looked on that knitted sweater. But Finnegan Harries main question: "What does he have that I do not?" and it is still with no answer at all.
He liked her; but they were different. Really different. He played guitar, but she was into drummers, and though they did not have many things in common, they had two and that was what kept the flame burning for so long.
They care about each other and they knew each other.
And that was what destroyed them. They knew each other a lot, they knew each other's weakness and therefore, they knew were to attack.
-Hello Finnegan. - Mary said.
He just stood up and left the lobby cleaning the tears that started falling from his eyes. He locked himself in his room and hit the bed with his feet. He wished the Earth could open in two and totally swallow him. He wasn't ready to cope with her staying there, or maybe he just wasn't ready to tell her that the feeling he promised would disappear , continue to sprout. Everything was a mess. He was a mess and it was because of the presence of Mary Elizabeth Bloodworth.
He sat on the bed trying to focus on what mattered and to clean up his mind, when he heard a noise at the door. Someone was knocking. Oh Finnegan, would you still open if the person on the other side is Mary? He didn't know.
-Can you please open the door? - She said while lying her head on the door. He did not answer. - Please Finn.
-What? - He said while softly opening the door letting her in - What do you need?- She closed it.
-I said hi and you suddenly ran away...
-Yeah
-Why did you do that?
-Didn't you ever think that maybe I was trying to avoid you? - He said staring at the window.
-Avoid.. me...?
-Yes, avoid you.
-Why on earth would you eve.... - She mumbled before she remembered what he had said. "I'm sorry but we cannot be friends anymore. As long as I keep feeling the way I do, we should just avoid each other" - Never mind.
-I am sorry but - He sighed denoting frustration and anger. - I really want to hang out with you and, be friends like we used to but I cannot do it.
She took an envelope from her pocket and gave it to him. When she hold it against him, he stood up and grab her waist, putting their bodies closer.
-What is this? - He snarled really near her ear.
-Those are the things I cannot tell you face to face without falling apart.- She said while leaving a soft kiss on Finn's cheek and making her way out.
Finn stayed standing up for a few moments in the same place with his eyes closed; then he sighed and started reading the letter.
"Dear Finnegan,
I'm writing this at 3:15 am while..."
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What's up? How you doing? I'm still trying to get inspired and I know this is a really boring chapter but yeah.. I don't know.
So, I decided to put every chapter a song that I think relates to it or maybe is stuck in my head and this chapter track would be Out Of My Limit by 5 Seconds Of Summer which is absolutely stuck in my brain and it also quite relates to this chapter so Hope you enjoy!!
Thanks for reading!!
