The Party (Kendall Jenner x Y/N)

XVIII

A/N: Lyrics from Coaster, by Khalid.

Y/N POV:

Walking into school with Kylie, I almost walked into about ten people as I couldn't keep my eyes off my phone. I grinned as the screen lit up once again, while Kylie rolled her eyes. Ever since Kendall had made the move to New York, I had to admit I'd been neglecting her sister slightly; all of my attention had gone into waiting to hear from my girlfriend.

Kenny – 08:34
morning babe, facetime tonight? last night was fun x

08:35
sounds good Kenny, I'll be free right after school x
delivered

Memories from the previous evening played across my mind; I found myself trying to hide the blushing I couldn't fight. Last night had begun entirely innocently, but half an hour into the call that was completely gone, and so were most of our clothes...

"I'm really happy for you," Kylie smiled, "you make each other happy and I couldn't think of anybody better for either of you." It meant everything to me. With Kylie's arm slung lazily around my neck, I knew that together, we could get through anything.

I felt nothing short of elated as we continued on through school on our way to class; I had the most supportive best friend in the world, and a relationship strong enough to make distance between us mean nothing.

****

As soon as that final bell rang, I practically leapt up from my chair, trying to look somewhat casual while running out of school towards my house. I swore under my breath as I fumbled with my keys, before unlocking that shit in what has to be record time.

As I made the facetime call, I accidentally bit my lip while trying to contain my excitement. I quickly checked my hair in the screen and adjusted my shirt slightly. That annoying ringing was seemingly endless, until it did end. Kendall was currently unavailable to facetime, so I sent her a quick text and scrolled through Instagram as I waited. I couldn't be waiting for long.

Countless hours went by and Kendall proceeded to be unresponsive, leaving all of my messages and calls unanswered. I hesitantly shut down my laptop as I noticed the room was now dark, and forced myself to get up so that I could switch on a light. I knew that she was busy now, she was working on her career and that was important, something easily could have come up, so I tried not to take it too personally.

I'll throw all of my cares away for you

I'll be there to wait for you

I flopped down onto my bed and began scrolling through Twitter, frowning when I found a tweet posted by my girlfriend just minutes ago. It was a screenshot of her messages with one of her friends, and in the corner was the number of unread messages she had – the same number of messages I had sent.

To know that my girlfriend was ignoring me obviously hurt, but I couldn't figure out what it was that I had done for her to do so.

Days went by and Kendall being distant became increasingly common. I missed my girlfriend like mad; not being in the same state as her was bad enough without the added complications of having my calls and messages be ignored. I missed her to a point where I felt physically sick. It was only now that I was without her that I realised how big the part she played in my life truly was. It wasn't healthy and I knew that perfectly well, but I was beginning to realise that I couldn't cope without Kendall. I realised now just how quickly our relationship had developed – too quickly, perhaps.

Maybe you weren't the one for me

But deep down I wanted you to be

It was only while I was crying in my best friend's arms, that I realised a small part of me resented myself for the way in which I fell for Kendall. I had fallen like crazy, almost expecting her to be there to catch me, without thinking of what I would do if she did not. I loved my girlfriend with all my heart and I did not for one moment regret loving her. Perhaps it was the time, or maybe the manner in which I fell for her, which could explain why I was hopelessly crying over a girl who now couldn't even give me her time of day.

My phone rang, pushing me out of my thoughts and forcing me to reluctantly pull myself out of Kylie's arms. I froze as I stared at the screen, causing Kylie to peer over my shoulder at it. I somehow pulled myself together enough to answer my girlfriend's call.

"Hello?" Hearing Kendall's voice after so long made me smile, but as I heard the girl I love spit out blatant lies to excuse herself, the smile faded from my face just as quickly.

The call was different to any previous conversations I had ever had with my girlfriend. It was unexplainably tense and somewhat awkward as we forced the conversation on. While we started off civil and mature, as the call duration increased it was clear that it wouldn't end the same way.

"Listen, I'm sorry okay, I'm trying to balance my new life and career with you and everyone back home and I can't," Kendall continued. I wasn't part of her new life, I was trailing behind it.

"Well then maybe we should just break up!" I cried, regretting it as soon as the words left my mouth. I meant it, but I hated the fact that I did. "Kendall I'm so-"

"Maybe we should," she simply agreed.

Moving on seems harder to do

When the one that you love moves faster than you

The silence which followed was unbearable. Silence between us had always been comfortable, and something I once treasured, but with time everything had changed. I don't recall who ended the call or when, I don't remember much following that conversation. Those final few minutes of the conversation just played over in my mind much like a broken record. I sobbed uncontrollably into Kylie's shoulder, while she held onto me tightly; we rocked gently back and forth.

So I'll be coasting, roller-coasting

Through my emotion

I will be coasting, roller-coasting

I'm hoping that you'll come back to me