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a soul worth saving

it started out playful and fun, our relationship...
until you changed.

to this day, i cannot pick out what it was. but one day, you were different. it was as if the ground had shaken and the earth had moved to reveal a canyon between us, no way to reach the other side without falling in.

you began to change.
"you would be prettier if you lost some weight, you know?"

you began to hurt me.
"maybe boys would like you if you wore some makeup and stopped dressing like a dude."

you began to steal my self-worth.
"we can't hang out if you are wearing that..."

you began to change me.

down to the depths you went, grasping on to anything you could to take with you.
including me.

you lied, you stole, you took things from me that i can never get back.

at first, i pitied you. i thought i could save you.
i tried to save you.

but you weren't a soul ready to be saved.
and you definately weren't ready for me.

i still see the scars you left on my heart when i close my eyes and try to sleep
i still feel the self-doubt
i still cry on days that i should have nothing but joy.

because you lied, you stole, you changed.