You break me

When I broke Myself

When you fall you fall far. Far from the world. You can't hear. You can't feel. When you can't see. It feels better now. now that I was drowning in my sorrows. Until a black haired boy pulled me out of the water. His eyes were blue ,but they still glistened with darkness. He put me down on the grass. I grabbed my legs and pulled them close to my chest then I let go and ran back up the hill to the cliff again to jump off. But.. the funny thing is. He was running after me. Why was he doing that? He didn't know me. Then I looked back what I would never do. It wasn't just some boy. It was Kristain he was a bad boy the misfit of the family. Well his family. But he was trying to save me. But it wasn't saving me. I jumped off again. But this time when I hit the water I did feel I felt the cold rush in this time when I hit it. Then I heard the water when he came in after me. Why did he risk his life for me. He could have just left me to drown. He had everything. He coul get a girl in seconds might I add. Maybe he felt guilty. But it wasn't his fault. Next everything went black I could only hear him. breathing heavily after heaving me onto the sand. I was just lying there. Then he did mouth to mouth which I wasn't expecting. His mouth was warm. Warm with life. My body wasn't responding to what I wanted it to do. The next thing I thought was I'm dead and I'm stuck dreaming about him great then everything went black again.When I woke up I was laying on a bed. Maybe this is where you go when you die. I got up ,but then I felt dizzie the dizieness forced me to go back down causing even more of it. Then Kristain came and I jumped. What was he doing here. I'm not dead great I got up this time and actually walked away well I tried to. He grabbed my hand. 

"your not leaving like that was nothing. I will be watching you." He wasn't going to let this go was he. I walked out of the huge house his father looked at me like I was crazy. Kristain dollan was a strange ,but temptateting boy. I mean look at him. He was a bad boy. The one every girl liked. I wasn't a bad girl or peppy one I was the one that you wanted to stay away from. I was surprised that he knew who I was. 

When I got to my house I got in the shower then I got a message. 

unknown: Don't do it. 

I knew it was him. So I put his name into my phone. 

Kristain: Don't make me come over there and put you in one of those hospitals.

Me: jeez just leave me alone I won't do it okay bye. 

I didn't get an answer from him. So I started the shower. When I got in it was warm on my arms it felt good to have a shower after being in the cold water. I was finished and after I got out of the shower I went to bed. and after I had got ready I opened the door to a Kristain standing there leaning against his very expensive new car. But I kept walking his smile suddenly fell. As I did I fell off that cliff. He picked me up and therw me in the car and locked the doors. there was no way out this time. He opened his mouth ,but nothing came out. 

"why are you doing this you could have left me to die ,but you came after me." He looked at me in shock he didn't expect me to speak. 

"I didn't want to witness a death of a girl that could live for so much." He looked into my eyes. 

"give me one reason why I shouldn't go back and jump again?" I searched his face. 

"your parents your sister me?" He looked at me and to my surprise a tear rolled down my face as he said those words. He came close and wiped the tears from my cheek. Then he leaned into my face and kissed me on my lips.  What ,but why their was no logic to it. I didn't have friends and I was definetly not a bad ass either. I was a little depressed girl that didn't like anyone. Well I did like people they just didn't like me. I was  a lonely little girl. Yes Kristain my make me feel like life is a little bit worth living. Wait how did he know I have a sister. I pushed him away. 

"How, How do you know me how do you like me?" He looked me in the eyes. 

"I know everything and intend to find out everything else about you" It was so intense. I got out of the car and ran. 

There was things that didn't need to be found out. I kept running ,but his car was still behind me. I started to pick up my pace I wasn't planning on being forced to live a life I didn't want to live. 

The car stopped. finally he stopped following me. Then a tear fell down my face. Why was I crying. I never cried before when they stopped caring about me when I stopped caring. I thought that this would be over already. 

"are you okay?" I looked up he was starring down at me. 

"look what you did I never cry I not supposed to feel like this." I yelled right in his face and I fell back to the ground I thought he would leave ,but he didn't. He was now on the ground beside me. His hand was around my shoulder. 

"You need to cry sometimes it's not good to hold it all in" He stayed that day,but would he stay when it got worse?