You break me

NO 3

"That's very funny lover-boy ,but nows not the time" 
He was shocked. 

"well I thought a slut like you would have wanted that" He mocked. 

"what did you say!" 

"I called you a slut! I mean come on you fuck Jason and not me!" He yelled

"I'M A VIRGIN!" I slammed the door and walked out of the house. 

I started to walk fast and then I picked up speed. Sooner then I thought i was running. I hit the ground in an instant. It was Taylor. She and her tripod had pushed me into the dirt. as soon as I knew it they were beating me up. My face hurt. And the my stomach. not soon after my legs. I didn't bother fighting back. It just felt like a blur. 
 
In the distance I could here Hannah talking. "Oh my god we killed her!" I was to weak to get up. 

"Taylor she wasn't loved anyways she won't be missed" 

It stung the words ,but I couldn't do anything. 

I just laid there.  

I could only hear the foot steps coming towards me. I was to tired to open my eyes. 

"Lillian?!" it was his voice. It sounded so comforting even if the words that came out of his mouth a few minutes ago were cruel. 

I coughed and tired to move ,but it hurt so much. 

"LILLIAN!!!" was he joking no one calls me that. It sounds sweet in his mouth...

He picked me up. 

"ow!" I flinched. 

I could tell that it sunk in that I wasn't  going to be okay. 

"who was it?" He looked at me bluntly. 

"put me down!" he listened to me. My legs were weak ,but I manged. 

He hesitated. "I'm fine okay! I just fell" I couldn't tell him the truth. 

I walked home then. He didn't say anything to me. 

I waked up with the anticapation to be bold that morning. So I took out one of my mini skirts and put on a blue crop top. My make up was black. With the decision of dying my hair dark blue I thought the outfit was perfect. 

I walked in that morning and everyone stared. Even the tripod. 

I walked up to them.

"Guess I'm not dead after all" I whispered in Taylor's ear. 

"Didn't you know karma's a bitch" I took her hand and rushed her to the girls room. 

I locked the door. 

"So now its my turn!" And I punched her right in the face. I whispered in her ear once more. 

"And if you tell I will have you charged!" With that i walked out.

After that I only just realized that my next class was with Jason. He was next. 

"Oh, Jason!" He turned back to me. 

"You forgetting something?" He had a confused look.

then I  kissed him. and whispered in his ear. 

"just as good as you imagined. Now don't fuck with me" and I slapped him. 

I walked away. Something started to fall down my cheek. I wiped it away. I can't be crying. 

I looked at what it was. It was a large cut on my cheek how did I not notice that. I started to cover my face. Then I bumped into him. Kristin. 

"Hey, are you okay?" I kept my face down. 

"Yep I'm great now I got to go!" 

He stopped me. 

"Is that blood?!" His eyes were full of worry and he wasn't even covering it. 

"Yes." He took my face in his hands and looked at the cut. Then he picked me up and started running. What was he doing. 

Everything felt dizzy. The next minute I blacked out. 

I woke up in a bed. It was weird at first then I realized it was Kristins. The hockey trophies and  Bookshelves filled with books. My cut was covered. With a bandage. I must have passed out because of my head injury. But that didn't matter. Where was Kristin? 
I got up to look at the books. They weren't bad books either. Of course not ones I would read ,but they were good. 

"I know never pegged me as a reader huh?" He was doing the famous "Lean" against the door frame. 

"No I thought that you were more of a lets screw the pretty girls and play hockey type" He winced at the comment I made. 

"Thanks, But I don't do that." He went over to the bed a laid down with his eyes closed. 

"Then what is all that I'm a slut deal about?" He didn't open his eyes. 

"I like you and when I heard you were messing around with another guy...Well its the first thing that came to mind." I looked at the pictures on his walls. They were all beautiful pictures of a beach that he had been to it looked like. 

"I don't really have interest in anyone. Nor am I messing around with anyone else." 
Although I have interest in him I can't tell him. There is no way I'm going to let that get to his head. 

"Not even me?" He sat up now looking me directly in the eyes. 

"Not even you." 
Yes of course you. 

I couldn't look at him anymore. It just gave me so much pain. Even if my disease doesn't kill me who knows I might end up killing myself first. 
"Why do you want to die?" It struck me that he'd asked 

"Well, I'm a burden to my family" Which was true. All the treatments. "I wish life was like it was" 
Also true. Like when I didn't have cancer and I could play on a sports team. 

"I guess thats it." I looked at him again. He looked as if he was going to laugh so much he would cry. 

"That's Impossible there must be something more. I mean you have a great life and you're top of your grade how could you be a burden." I didn't answer. Because it wasn't a question. He was stating what he knew. 
Then my phone buzzed. Three times in a row. One for mom. One for dad. And One for Ash. 
They were all texting me because of the next treatment. They are like an alarm clock. 
"I've gotta go!" I grabbed my bag off the end of his bed and my phone. 

"What are you gunna do walk?" He looked at me like I was crazy. 

I took the bus to school so even if I made it there I wouldn't have my car anyways.

"Can you drive me home?" 

"Yeah, I mean You can't walk." He started walking down the stairs. I just followed. Then we made it to his car. 
"I don't mean for my car to look cocky you know?" He laughed. 

"It's not bad It just looks expensive." I got in the passenger seat. 

I told him where we were going as he started the engine. 

"You're cute when you're sleeping you know." He kept his eyes on the road. Thank god he couldn't see me blushing. 

"Almost comforts me you don't look as troubled." He sighs. I knew what he was talking about. I always have something on my mind. 

It was a long silent ride. But not awkward It was peaceful watching him. 

"Here we are." He looked at me for the first time since we got in the car.

His eyes were beautiful. A bright blue. It was very intense though. 

"Thanks, for driving me home." I looked at the door of my house and hopped out of his car.