You break me

Treatments (4)

As soon as I got in the house my 18 Year old sister had so many questions. I could tell. Her eyes wanted to know everything. Even though I was 3 years younger and she had done everything I have already she wanted to know. 
"Who is he??" She smiled. 

"Just a boy Ash. He is not my "boyfriend" just a boy" She knew I liked him already. As she got up her Head full of red Hair bounced. 
"I can tell you like him Lill" I rolled my eyes.

"So what if I like him. We aren't together and are never going to be." Her smile faded. 

"You never go out with guys Lill. You need to take a chance I'm sure he likes you too!" She hugged me. 

Then Mom and Dad walked in. Dads voice boomed. 

"We need to go before we are late for your treatments!" He rushed us out the door. 

Ash and I sat in the back while Mom and Dad talked about the treatments. 

I just looked out the window. Maybe Kristin and I could be a thing. Maybe I will live. 

>30 Mins later< 

"We are going to keep you here for 3 days" The nurse told me this 5 times already ,but she wanted to make sure it was okay. 
"It's fine, I told you." They need to monitor how the treatments are going apparently. 

After a while my Parents got food we all ate in the cafe in the hospital and then they said their goodbyes and left. 

I started to text Kristin. 

Me: I won't be at school tomorrow. 

I waited a while for him to text back. Hoping he won't ask why. 

Kristin: Why? I can pick up your school work if you want?

Of course he has to ask though. 

Me: I'm really sick. My sister is picking up my work already. 

Kristin: Can I bring you soup?

Ew I'm so sick of eating soup I'm thinking its going to make me sick.

Me: No, My Mom has made me soup to last decades Lmao.

Kristin: Alright, I hope you feel better. 

After that my nurse came in. Of course always two minutes after you press your button. 
I was just so tired. Not physically emotionally. Holding back how I felt for Kristin and Holding back telling everyone about my condition. Even though I know eventually I'm going to have to tell them. I of course didn't want to. 
My Nurse hooked up the clear tub that went into my skin. After all that I could finally sleep. 

When I woke up it was bright out. My family wouldn't be here until lunch time. Of course my Nurse showed up with the sickly same meal as every other day for breakfast. You could pick what you want for other meals. 

"You have a visitor" My Nurse told me this. 

Maybe it was him? I could just tell him that I got to sick. 
Then my sister walked in. Just as I thought. My hopes let down. 

"Kristin, stopped by the house this morning to give you these." She handed me beautiful white roses. Hope. That's what they meant. 

"I told him you were still sleeping. And that I would tell you to call him when you woke up." I guess I could call him in a bit. 

"Thanks for bringing them" I stood up and took the flowers and put them in a vase. 

"You didn't tell him did you?" I nodded. 

"It's just to much" I couldn't look at her. 

"He really likes you Lill" I know. I was the girl that made the bad boy good. 

"I can't date him you know that if something happened to me then.." I sat back down on the hospital bed. 
"He would be there no matter what." She said this with hope in her eyes. 

"What happens when you lose your hair?" I never really thought about it. 

"Will you just tell him you shaved it off for a good cause??" She started to walk away. 

"Just remember that you can't stop things that are meant to be" Then she closed the door and I was all alone again. 

About 2 hours later when my family had already left from having lunch and I knew school was over I called Kristin. 

"Hey" I wanted to hear his voice so bad. 

"How are you feeling?" I could hear the worry in his voice. 

"I'm feeling okay. I just might need to take the rest of the week off school" I looked out the window trying to imagine his blue eyes. 

"Did you get my flowers?" I could feel him smiling through the phone. 

"Yes, They're beautiful." I couldn't help ,but smile. 

"They, mean hope. Because I feel like you needed that." 

"I wish that you would tell me what you're thinking." I could picture him saying that. 

"I'm thinking about all the different possibilities." Of me and you. 

I could hear an alarm in the background. 

"Shoot I gotta go. But I hope you do tell me the possibilities soon Lily" 
Then he hung up. 

The next 3 days were The most boring ever. On the Friday of the coming week was a dance. I wanted Kristin to ask me. But on Monday he never picked me up for school. I would love to say I was glad ,but I wasn't. He didn't pop up at my locker either. The next minute I saw him. With Taylor. He must have moved on. 

"Hey, Lillian" I mean at least he still said hey ,but that's not what I wanted. I wanted more. 

"Hi" I just passed him. 

"Looks like she's just a bit jealous she can't have you." That one hurt.

"She'll be fine though with all those boy toys she has she'll get over you!" She giggled. Kristin didn't say anything. Why wouldn't he say anything. He knew that wasn't true right? 

"Excuse me?" I turned around to see Taylor shocked I said anything. Mainly because I always kept quite when people said something about me ,but also because she was a force to not be reckoned with. 

"I think you heard me loud and clear." She smiled. 

"I was in the hospital for three f***ing days and I come back to school to see a slut like you with Kristin saying I'm the slut." I could see the surprise on Kristin's face when he heard the truth. 

"You were lying?! I thought you said she was to hung over to go to school from messing with all those guys??" Seriously that's what she came up with? 

"She lied too!" I started walking away at that point it was just a lost cause.  

Taylor was long gone down the hall way still talking to Kristin I thought.  

Until I heard his footsteps following me.  He grabbed my arm I knew it was him because of the warmth of his hand. 

"Why were you in the hospital?" His voice was so warm. I couldn't lie to him anymore. 

"For my Treatments"