I saw you again- after 10 years, I saw you again. You're still as handsome as you were when we were in college. I'm wanting not to go near you-but the gravity between us is pulling my feet to move closer to you. I'm afraid that you'll not recognize me or that you are with someone. I'm also afraid that it might be awkward. But I couldn't afford to lose this chance just like what I did 10 years ago. And with a lot of courage, I took my first step to be near you. Your eyes crinkled a little the moment you saw me, just like how my grandma always did when she tries to recognize me. Being closer and closer to you is like seeing the beach while you're still in the car-you just can't wait to be there and get soaked and embraced by the warm water. I stand right in front of you and smile. You seem so shocked and honestly, I could see in your eyes how much you missed me- and then, you hugged me. You said sorry for not recognizing me earlier and told me that you forgot to wear your eye glasses. I knew that you'll end up having a poor eyesight since you loved watching too much movies on your laptop till dawn. We talked about life and what we do- I missed talking to you. You asked for my number and say you'll text me to keep in touch. A part of my soul is still hoping that you and me will end up together. But this is my mistake, this was and will always be my mistake- I believed in destiny and fairytales too much. A lovely litlle kid called you 'daddy' and ran towards you, behind her is a beautiful lady of our age- this is exactly the situation I've been afraid of. You introduced me to your wife and asked your daughter to kiss me in the cheeks. What a lovely family you have. We said our goodbyes and I wave my hand as I watch you get into the car.
I went home-not yet moved on to what had happened earlier. And as I opened the door of my unit, Cersei, my dog, rushed and jumped into me. And the tears I am holding back for hours finally went down just like a waterfall. For ten years, I hoped that it would be you and me. For ten years, I prayed that fate will bring us back together. Why love has to be like this? How it could make you love someone so much that you could no longer see anyone except for him?
The wound you left 10 years ago re-opened. Yes, it wasn't healed yet-but I know time will. No matter how long the process is, there is one thing I'm very certain of- I'll get better.
