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A hand written song

I made this with feeling and it's truthfull....I like to write songs about me a lot and I want to share this one with y'all

-the shadow of a robot-
I don't feel the same...
I'm falling apart....
Like an old rusty machine....
And I can't control my body...
I just walk without saying....
A word...
My shadow is lighter than others..
Yet I can't see why....
But now I know...
It's becuz...
I don't belong....
-faster guitar-
This world has got me on my knees
And I cry
For
Help!
Yet nobody comes along
So all I got!
Is a shadow...
Of a robot
-guitar slower-
I feel my bones creak...
I don't feel pain...
But yet it's okay...
Tell me it is fine..
But I know it's not...
I try to keep people happy...
But it's always the same...
They grow bigger than me...
And I'm forgotten..
like a toy in a puddle...
On a rainy day...
And if I stab my self
I feel at home
But I can't help
Knowing I'm not alone
And this pain lingers
Within my soul...
Yet it feels...
Satisfying
To feel the cold touch...
-faster guitar-
And I break my self some more!
Hoping it will be clear
That my job is
To be no more
I was made to die
Just like the rest
And let my shadow
Of a robot
Consume my soul...
Let the shadow of a robot
Consume my soul...
-slower-
I learn more and more
That It's hard to live
Yet when I cry at this
I feel like I was never crushed
I don't have happiness
I don't have fear
I don't have sadness
I don't have love...
Anger and calm are all I got
And even them
Aren't worth enough...
But if i touch the rope
I can see the light...
But yet the rope doesn't exist.
So I have to do...
Grab the knife
And cut the shadow..
Of a robot
Of a
Rrrrrooooooo
Bbbboooottttt...
I'd love to feel the pain of my home
Oil is my blood
So let it spill
Yet you take the knife
And tell me other why's
Telling me I can be loved
But ur not loved...
When u don't feel love
-faster-
And I got the shadow
Of a robot in my blood
I don't fear death himself
For I want him near
-slow-
"Hey come on!lets go play"
"Y-yeah let's go"
"You've been smiling a lot lately"
"Have I?"
"Yeah but...ur eyes.."
"What about them?"
"I don't see happiness in them"
"That's just my eyes"
Save me from this hatred
"Oh..well let's go"
You never will understand
"Yeah...let's go"
That I'm dying
"Hey wait"
I'm dying
"Yeah?is something up?"
I'm dying
"I...don't feel like..."
I'm dying
"Like what?"
I'm dying
"Playing right now...I have to..."
I'm dying inside and out
"Do what?"
And you'll never understand my pain
"Change my bandages...."
Cuz I could never tell
The truth
"Oh...did u hurt yourself?"
For if I did
"Yeah"
I'd just die more...
-faster-
Worthless
Hopeless
A waste of space
Stupid
Dumbass
Retarded
Bitch
Crybaby
Homo
"Ur fine"
"I'm fine"
Robot!
I'm a robot!
I have the shadow!
Of a robot!
"I'm fine"
I'm fine
I'm fine
I'm fine
I'm fine
I'm fine
"Ur fine"
"I'm perfectly...fine"
I'm not fine!
I'm not fine!
"I'm...*sniff*fine"
I'm not fine!
"I'm..*sniff* fine Right?
I'm not fine!
I'm not fine!
"I'm not fine"
I never was fine
And when I called you mine
I still wasn't fine
And when u said!
"I love you with all my heart"
"Promise?"
"Promise"
I knew you lied!
Liar
Liar
Liar
Liar
Liar
Liar
Liar
Liar!
-slower-
Ur a dirty liar
A liar
"Let me go?
"Yeah.."
"Why?"
"U love another so love her"
And I'll never be back
For I'm a robot
With a shadow...
Of a emotionless robot...
Who can't help but cry
When she looks you in the eyes
And remembers the look
You gave you
But now ur giving it away
"But I....im sorry"
You gave ur love away
And now it's gone
And I don't love you
For I can't feel
This word love
"Sorry?its too late for that"
For I am a robot
With a shadow
Of a dead robot...
Falling apart...
-end of song-