My drawings and requests

A poem mainly my friends should read but all is welcomed to read it

Roses are red 

and Violets are purple 

but that's not i see 

in my world of needs 

they say i look upset 

but i lie to get them off my back 

my voices in my head

always come back 

to haunt my mind 

to haunt my soul 

i cry myself to sleep 

for the pain is to much to seek 

i hold the blade 

and try to say 

"i'm alright"

but that's a lie 

my attitude won't stay the same 

and it was never a game 

i hate to be teased

but i can't stop what happens 

or what others do 

and when i try to help 

you never see 

even tho i'm in pain 

you ignore 

so why should i care?

why should i give a fuck 

about others when they don't give a fuck for me 

you say you do 

then you ignore me like some pawn on the board 

my mood won't stay calm 

one moment i'm caring 

then the other i ignore you 

i want to be in control 

i want to be in demand 

but as long as your in the throne 

i will stay a pawn 

i want to dominate them all 

to show them how far 

my rage can go 

but i hold back 

cause i love her 

and i don't wanna show 

her the monster i can be 

she will find out soon

but for now 

i'll wait instead of bringing it fourth

CAUSE 

I 

DON'T 

CARE