stopping fate

part 7: friendship no more

"Llana.. I love you."

A really romantic proposal for love, huh? This gets me so quiet. Your childhood friend suddenly tells you how he feels all these years when you knew you were the best of friends. But  suddenly, he's here. He's in front of me, tempting to destroy that wall of friendship that strictly holds the rules of: more than friends--not included. I heard this sentence before. Yeah, the one from a korean drama April forced me to watch. The only thing is.. this one is real.

Ben staring at me blushes double but still with a stronger knees than me as i reach for the nearby bench to compose myself.

"Ben.. I-I don't.."

"Llana, I know. This will be awkward for you, for both of us. But, believe me I am looking forward for  this day. I'm desperate. I should repress this feeling but I know it will grow eventually more than I can imagine, and I have to let it go."

"But why me? Why not, somebody else? Why me,  your childhood friend?"

"I've been thinking about that  long time ago, Llana. I am still am. Being a childhood friend all this time completely blocks my decision until now. I wanted it to be fair for me, for you, for the world. I wanted you to be my special someone, not only a friend for you to be joking around, for you to confess your love problems about someone who could be my potential... rival."

April is right. He will confess. And to think, I can keep calm with all what's coming. I will never be. I will be inside my room later-not being able to sleep again not only because of Mr. Tulips slash Mr. Hydragea.. but also because of Ben and his now free-feelings.

"Ben.. we shouldn't be this way. I don't want my bestfriend to go. I want him to be with me as before. I don't want to accept this.. this declaration"

"You will, Llana. You will eventually. Besides, I am still here. I'm not going anywhere.. the thing is.. I love you more than a best friend can do. I've hoped for you to be--mine. I am sorry. I know this will be difficult for you." He closes the gap. He touches my face. He tucks my hair behind my ear and flinch at my cold temperature.  He never put away those longing stares from me and strengthen the compassion behind those pupils. I want to let go of the touch but I don't want to push him away a little more. I don't want him to be hurt.

"Ben-"

He kisses me. After all those passionate words, he kisses me. He touch me with those soft lips where he told about how he loves me all this time. I am surprised. I automatically pull my lips as he  starts to crave more. He smiles and make a distance. I just don't want to keep hurting him but somehow the kiss gives him a little hope. The time I am surprise as he touches his lips to mine and the time I taste his softest flesh is the time everything in that day changes.

"I'll be waiting, Llana, because I love you. I loved you from that first day and I'll always will."

 -----to be continued

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*oh no, Ben kissed LLana!