flood banks open. theyre suffocating me
i claw at my throat where the sobs escape
i tug at my hair the pain grounding me reminding me that im still in control
i want to tear at my face until the skin peels away
i want to feel the pain that i deserve i want to punch something until my knuckles break, until i am numb to the pain
my teeth grind against each other and shatter to pieces
i dont want the ringing in my ears to every stop i want it to persist
it seems to be the only thing drowning out the world my surroundings nothing but a dream
the same demon that drives me to this state lulls me to sleep.
