Being mentally sick is exhausting
so fucking exhausting
it fucking sucks being sad all the time and not being motivated and constantly worrying and thinking
'oh they said that one word with a strange tone guess they're mad at me' or 'he hasn't talked to me in a day guess he hates me'
I want to be happy, and i try, i really do but im stuck in this fucking loop of thinking im getting better and then dropping down to a new low
im privileged, extremely privileged and complaining makes me feel bad because people have it worse yeah but no i get sad sometimes and am a bit anxious
realistically i know its worse than just a bit sad and just a bit anxious
but thats how i see myself, and im over it, its becoming part of my personality and thats just so gross, i want to skip this part of my life and just move alone to where i can stop worrying about every little thing and go a day without crying
