You're no longer the girl who brightened my day. You're no longer the girl who stopped me from suicide. You aren't the girl I thought I'd be friends with forever. I miss that girl. A whole lot. Your someone different. And I respect that. You broke off our friendship with a letter. Sometimes I wonder if it was a one sided friendship. I don't think you felt as lost when you did it as I did. I just wish we could be the same. I didn't think of you as a friend. I didn't think of you as my best friend. I thought of you as family. You saved me from myself when i thought no one could. You brought someone into my life who I will never let go of. She is like a sister to me, as much as you were. No one can ever replace the friendship we had but she started our own. I wouldn't be here without either of you. She picked me up when you threw me down. She opened up when you closed. She started speaking when you stopped. She held me once you let go. I will NEVER blame you for what you did. You believed it was best and maybe it was. Maybe it wasn't. I'm not gonna lie. I was angry at first. I thought you did it out of spite. But you didn't. You did what was best. I wouldn't have as good as a friendship with the girl you let into my life. She's no longer a friend. She's family. I can't thank you enough for being with me through thick and thin. But now that job is up to me. But no matter how many times we try to rekindle what we had, we both said things than can never be taken back. We both did things that can never be taken back. I wish I could take back every rude and mean thing but I can't. But I still wonder what if we didn't say and do those things? Where would we be now?
