YES, DADDY?

yikes

(i wrote yikes as the title because i think it might mean something bad but i have no clue what does it really mean but anyways)

So uh, i lost my collar haha, i'm kinda (a lot) sad because i loved that collar and i only found it in one store so yeah, now i'm sad over it (too, y'all know what i mean if y'all read my main spam book too)

Also, i kinda want a caregiver but i kinda don't want it? Lemme explain myself, i want a caregiver because of course i want the whole packs that comes with the "i'm gonna take fully care of you" but also i'm scared of the punishments that might be applied if i misbehave, i'm scared they are gonna use my fears such as my agoraphobia or my anxiety doing some public humiliation or something like that, just the thought of it make my knees shake.