Too Much to Lose

5. The Voice's Whisper

     I shouldn’t do that when everything is in the right track. I didn’t respect Claire and I hurt Michaela. Rosette is going back here and I don’t know how to tell her about Michaela. Claire and I talk about what happened during her giving birth to Michaela and how did she survived without telling this matter to her parents.

     Claire is such a pathetic she didn’t pay much attention to Michaela because I could tell it by just looking at the child eyes. She’s a sweet but a lonely girl. A girl like Michaela should enjoy being a kid and received a proper education.

Claire and I had a deal on how I can support my child.

You have to give her half of your attention, support on her needs and act like father to her.

I can consider Claire as irresponsible mother to my child.

I am driving going to my house when my phone rang again. It’s Rosette.

“Don’t forget to visit mom and dad to tell them that I’ll be back tomorrow, I love you.”

This girl actually loves me and how dare I am to test it. She’s perfect, she’s love and she’s my life how could I possibly do that to her.

Not my fault, I didn’t know about that child that Claire’s bore inside her womb.

“Okay babe, take good care of yourself. I miss you so bad and I love you too.” My mind focused to this situation. I can’t think clearly right now.

After I arrived to their house I could see Mr. And Mrs. Lyn inside the house. They are a perfect couple they grow old with each other arms.

     I wish that Rosette and I reached that stage and our grand children will witness our never ending love for each other. I want to pass the tradition to the future generation of our family and it will start at my child time. I don’t want my son or daughter to be like me because I want a good future for them. I want them to find the true love of their life before giving everything. Marriage is the key to a perfect relationship. I wished that I could turn back the time and understand that words but it’s too late for me. Now I know how time really affects human’s life.

I knocked. The door opened.

“Good evening Mr. Lyn.” I offered my hand to give respect.

“Oh, Mark it’s you.” He took my hand then shake. “Come in.” I respectfully nod.

“We have visitor Ana.” Mr. Lyn guided me to their dining table. Mrs. Lyn looked immediately then back to her business, she’s cooking.

     “Are you hungry Mark?” Mrs. Lyn asked me without looking at me and Mr. Lyn.

She’s like Rosette a very caring lady.

“Not much but now yes Mrs. Lyn after I smell it. I bet that food is really delicious.” We all laugh.

“I bet too.” answered Mr. Lyn.

This couple is what I’m talking about. “Mr. Lyn, tomorrow Rosette is finally going home. She wants me to tell you about it.” I smile then Mr. Lyn smiled. “Well that’s a good news Mark, we really missed her.” He looked at Mrs. Lyn that, that time is already finished cooking the food.

“Mr. Lyn if you will excuse me I’m going to check her room. Then if you want to eat then go ahead.”

     I climb at the stairs then finally reached Rosette’s room. I want it clean and in order before she came back.

I turn on the light and I arranged her bed and stuff toys. I also clean her bathroom when something fell on the floor. I searched for it, it sounds like a metal or something like that.

     “Finally found y--.” I stopped because the object that I found is Rosette’s engagement ring. I gather my thoughts about it. Why did she remove the ring? Is this the reason why she took too long inside the bathroom because she’s trying to search for it before going out? It’s better to call her.

I dialled her number.

Phone is number busy. Why on earth she had to remove it?

     But instead of calling her again I leave a message then decide to talk to her when she’s back. I keep the ring inside my pants pocket then I leave the bathroom after cleaning.

     I reached home around 2 o’clock in the morning because I just had a dinner with Mr. and Mrs. Lyn and after that I went to a convenient store to buy a stock of foods good for a week. This is my usually routine when I am working that’s why it is good to have Rosette by my side. When the time I am still moving on she’s there for me and she always carry away my doubts and also my fears. She’s like a light that can lighten up my day, as I always say she’s everything.

     After arranging the stocks I lay in my bed, looking at the ceiling I imagine the time she’s inside my arms. It’s good to know that finally tomorrow she will be back and we will be together again.

A moment later...

I fell asleep.

     I am struggling to catch my breath. I am running inside a tunnel and at the end of it there’s a two way, the one is dark but full of candlelight and the other is light but I could see many holes.

Which one? I’m so confused. I don’t know what is at the end of every path but I have to follow my heart. “Which one I’m going to take?” I asked again.

There’s a hollow voice…

    In every negative situation there is always a positive result. Take the path you know that it will lead you to the way of… truth.

I heard an explosion, again.

I take the darker path…

This feeling, I knew it.

I’m finally home.