after the warsaw show we did the meet and greet until the venue was quiet and dead. we wandered out to the large black tour bus and entered one by one.
i'd never been in a tour bus before so i didn't know what to expect when it came to sleeping, eating and travelling. but this bus was massive, not like the ones that would take you to school. i walked through sliding my hand across the glossy wood embellishments as i saw the sleeping situation.
on the two narrow walls there were two sets of three bunks and on the other wall there was the same. each covered by a curtain and a sticker that had our name written on it. the two day journey to germany would certainly be interesting.
my bunk was at the bottom since i was the shortest. aaron was opposite me and above me was lia. i opened the curtain to see how much room there was, luckily it was enoughthat you couldmoveabout and notfeel claustrophobic.
"feel free to decorate them with pictures and stuff" bartsaid throwing his body onto the seating area. luckily i already had pictures of my family and friends. before we left the country we stopped at a furniture store to pick up some new bedding.
+ SOPHIA FRAISER SUNDAY, 11TH JULY
"prague, here we come" matt yelled as the bus drove away from our final germany show in munich. i made my way into the bed area with the boys and crouched down to acsess my bunk. there laying on my duvet was a singular rose and a note attached to it.
my eyes scanned over the cursive lettering of the familiar message 'will you let it die or let it grow?'
at first i thought it may be carter pranking me but then my mind traced back to the warsaw show when shawn announced the song. was it really for me?
i layed on my bed rotating the stem back and forth between my fingers as the loud snores filled the air. many thoughts made my mind wonder. why does he still like me after everything that happened? how long has he liked me? how long have i liked him?
that day he told me i couldn't join them on the tour left me heartbroken but i couldn't hate shawn for being the only one willing to tell me. i wasn't just heartbroken because i couldn't go, i was heartbroken because i had ruined any last drop of friendship i had with the boys.
being on this tour meant i could regain what i lost which made me more than excited. i just needed to take baby steps, one by one.
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i rolled off my bunk and let my legs hang off the edge. aaron's small head poked out from behind the curtain with a smile on his face. i looked down as rose petals layed across the hallway leading out of the bunks.
i quietly got out so i wouldn't wake anyone up and followed the crisp petals. it led into the eating area which now had been made into a fort of blankets and fairy lights. i knelt down so i could see inside and shawn sat there setting up netflix on a laptop.
he spun around on the ball of his foot causing him to fall on his side as a laugh escaped my mouth. he went bright red as i shuffled in to the arm of the chair which had a pile of cushions leant on it.
"wow i didn't think you'd say yes" he said rubbing the back of his neck as a single curl of hair fell against his face in a 'c' shape. he crawled over to the cushions sat next to me.
"i thought i ruined everything" i said looking down at my tattooed fingers fiddling with them. shawn took my hand and place it in his as he clasped them together.
"well nothing can ruin this moment" he said kissing the back of my hand that was intertwined with his before leaning over to the laptop and playing my favourite film.
"we can move if you want" shawn asked as i started to get a little uncomfortable pressed up against the hard chair. he moved his body down and his head was leaning against the cushions like a bed. i slipped down which was a lot more comfortable and rested my head on his chest. i could hear his heart beating as his arm wrapped around my shoulders.
i just fell asleep in his arms as the movie played in the background. a warmth fell on my body as a blanket wrapped itself aroind my body. i rolled over so i was facing the opposite direction gripping onto the blanket as shawns arms layed on my hips.
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we woke up to all the boys peeping their heads into the fort making 'oo' noises like we were back in highschool.
"nothing happened you wierdos" i said throwing a cushion and hitting cameron's nose. he rubbed it in agony claiming it was broken which made all of us laugh. shawn and i secretly had our hands intertwined under the blanket as everyone came into the fort.
johnson threw his body over our legs pulling down one of the wall of the fort as he slammed against it. all of a sudden it caved in and we were covered in blankets and clothes pegs.
"atleast it was good whilst it lasted" shawn said smiling at me as johnson sat winking at us. i stuck my tounge out at him so he would stop.
"i bet it was" cameron said still holding his nose as i threatened to throw a cushion at him again. i looked at my phone screen to see it was two in the morning. we had a busy day ahead of us, it was a free day so we could tour the city of prague.
"alright i think it's actually bedtime" aaron said getting on his knees then standing up. he walked back to the beds and everyone followed behind. including shawn and i.
"night soph" he said as i reached my bed. he pressed his lips against my cheek and then let me go to my bunk.
"night shawn" i said watching him crawl into the bunk above aaron's bunk. i shut the curtain and turn around so i was facing the window and pictures of my family. slowly i drifted to sleep once again.
