Broken

"I'm Sorry, L"

Mick's POV:

Well, it has been a couple of days since that phone call and still no sign of L. 

I am not coping. Not one bit. 

Wake up. Drink. Sleep. Wake Up. Drink. It is a constant cycle. 

I was lying on bed, hugging L's jumper and crying. I had been drinking once again and once I got hold of her jumper, I just broke. 

There was a knock at the door. It was my mom.

"Mick?"

I didn't answer her.

"Mick? I'm wondered about you son. Please. Talk to me"

"Why ain't she come home Mum? I thought we had got our happily ever after yanno. But we didn't. She would rather stay at her mom's".

"Oi Mick, her mom is ill. I'm hoping you would do the same for me if I was ill."

"Course I would Mum"

"Exactly Mick"

"Mum, you don't understand. I feel so alone. L is my whole world. My wife. We have never spent any time apart. She's the one person who has always been there. Someone I could talk to. Now she's not there. I miss her so much. I need her."

"Mick, your not alone. You've got me, tina, nance and johnny. Well, your doing all of our heads in, what with your drinking and moping about. But you've still got us. "

"I could be sat in a room full of everyone and I would still feel alone because L is not there. Mum, will you just leave me alone? I need to be on my own" Tears streaming down my face.

"Mick, I..you shouldn't be on your own."

"Well, I want to. Please Mum."

"Fine, I'll be back up later. Love you son."

"Love you Mum"

Certain thoughts had be going around and around my nut all day. It was obvious L didn't want me anymore. Shirl, Nance, Johnny, Tina. I'm annoying them. I can't doing anything right. I'm no good for anyone. If I was any good, L would be here. But she's not. Maybe it would be better if I wasn't here then L could come home to the kids. Yeah..better if I go...

I grabbed my phone and started texting L.

 L,

I'm sorry. I'm sorry I wasn't good enough or I couldn't make you happy. You always made me happy. You always did and you always will. I love you more than you will ever know. I couldn't do it without you. I couldn't. Tell the kids I love them as well as Shirl and Tina. 

I'm sorry. Love you so much.

Mick x