We're Not Too Far Gone (Rick Grimes)

Chapter 12

1 week later

I had been with the group again for a week and i regret leaving, its nice being around them. They're all so kind and caring, i know what Rick said was wrong and thats why i left but i still regretted it. Rick and I were even closer now that we were no longer seperated, we spent more time with eachother, went on runs together and other things.

Rick, Daryl, Charlotte and I were on a run today and we just arrived at the shopping mall where we found Charl. We were seperated into two groups, Rick and Daryl, Charlotte and me. Charlotte and I were in the pharmacy then going to the clothes, while the boys were getting food and weapons. Charl and I filled my bag with everyone from the pharmacy and then went into the clothes shop. Rick and Daryl were in the shop opposite us. We walked in and quickly started to fill Charls bag with different clothes. We were almost done when i saw a walker walking towards Charl. I panicked and shouted, "CHARL LOOK OUT!" But before she had time to react, the walker sunk its teeth into her neck. "NOOO!" I screamed and collapsed. I shot the walker and crawled over to her, i sat her up and wrapped my arms round her neck, we both cried into eachothers shoulders. I heard footsteps. "Em, Charl, are ya okay?" I heard Daryls voice. I looked up and cried harder. "Shes bit" I whimpered and looked at Charlottes now lifeless body. He collapsed next to us, but he didnt cry, he held Charls hand in his and whispered something to her lifeless body. Then he looked at me and i cried even harder. He wrapped his arms round my waist and i put mine round his neck, and buried my head into his shoulder, i cried and cried, soaking his shirt before Rick came in. I heard him stop a distance away from us, "Please tell me thats not Emily on the floor" He said with worry in his voice. I started to cry harder. "No, its Charlotte" Daryl said. I couldnt speak. I physically couldnt, I pulled away from Daryl and wrapped my arms around Charl again, I stayed there for a few minutes and the boys stayed back. "I love you Charlotte, i love you so much, i cant believe your gone" I cried into her, I felt her hands grip onto me, "Your alive!" I cried and pulled back to see those white eyes. I cried again. "NO!" Rick and Daryl shouted in unison and Daryl shot a bolt through her skull. I stroked her hair before taking her bag from her. I stood up and walked off, i didnt want to talk, i just didnt feel like it. Rick slipped his hand into mine but i didnt say anything. We walked in silence back to the car and i got in the back. Daryl did aswell so he could comfort me, but i still didnt say a word.

About 40 minutes later we were back and it was dark. I walked into the house and dropped the bags onto the floor before walking up the stairs into me and Ricks room. I took out the necklace i had in my bag with the picture of Jack, Charlotte, Mum, Dad and I. I cried even harder and layed face down on the bed, holding the necklace tight in my hand. I had a photo frame of us all aswell, there was more back at my house, but i dont know if i could go back there, even if they would let me.

I heard the door slowly open and Beths voice. "Im so sorry Em" I heard that she was crying aswell and sat up, i put my arms out to her and we hugged eachother while crying. "I cant believe shes gone" I said to her. She pulled back and wiped her tears, "I know, but we need to be strong" She told me. I nodded and she left. After about 10 minutes Daryl came up and told me dinner was ready and hugged me. I nodded to him and he left, i didnt want to eat right now. I walked into the bathroom and locked the door. I was depressed, i knew Charl wouldnt want me to do this but i cant help it. I walked infront of the mirror and looked at myself, my bright red, bloodshot eyes and my flushed, tearstained cheeks. I punched the mirror and all the peices shattered onto the floor, I picked up a large peice of broken glass, "Im sorry Charl, I want to be with you" I whispered to myself before taking the glass to my wrist.

Beths POV

I was waiting for Em to come down for dinner but it didnt look like she was going to and I could see the worry in Ricks face. "Il take something up to her" I said and I nodded. "Thankyou Beth" He said and I took Emilys plate and started to walk up the stairs. When i got to her door and i knocked and there was no answer. I heard the sound of glass shatter and i opened the door to see the bathroom door shut. I heard her crying and I could guess what she was doing. I did it when we first met this group. I put the plate down and started to bang on the door. "Emily dont do it! It wont help i promise! Believe me i know because ive done it and all that happened was i almost died!" I shouted through the door. "Thats what I want!" She said back. I didnt know what to do. "I cant let you do this Em, your my best friend" I said. "Im sorry Beth, i love you" She said. "RICK! DARYL!" I screamed down the stairs and they soon both appeared in the room. "What?" Rick said. "Em, she, shes trying to commit suicide" I said. He walked past me and banged on the door. "Em you cant do this, you cant, it wont help, it may stop your pain but its going to cause even more pain for everyone else!" He said. There was no answer. "Fuck," Daryl said.  "Rick, get out the way" He said and Rick moved. Daryl kicked the door open and there stood Emily, blood all over her, and all over the floor. 

"I'm sorry, please help me"

Rick picked her up and started shouting "Hershel! Get your first aid kit! We need you to do stitches and fast!" He shouted while laying her down on the sofa, he knelt down beside her and covered the cuts on her arm with his hand and put pressure on it so the bleeding wouldnt be so severe. "Its gonna be okay" He said to her. Her eyes were barely open but they were looking straight into Ricks eyes. "I'm sorry" She whimpered before her eyes completely shut.

"NO!" He shouted, and my dad walked in the room with the first aid, "Where does she need them" He asked, "Her arm" Rick said. My dad leaned down next to her and quickly got the things he needed out. He started to stitch up Emilys arm. He was done quickly but she still didnt wake up. He put two fingers on her neck to check her pulse. "She had a pulse, but its weak, someone will have to keep an eye on her all through the night to make sure it doesnt stop." He explained. "I will," Rick said, "Im not gonna be able to sleep anyway." Dad nodded and he walked out. Rick picked up Emily and held her in his arms bridal style. He whispered to her

"Its gonna be okay baby, you'll be healthy again soon, i promise"