How To Save Ivy Morgan (ON HOLD)

flashbacks

It's been 2 days since the funeral. 2 weeks since his death. 10 days that I've been out of school. It's Monday. Taya's mother worried about me going back to school because of my breakdown last night. I told her I'd be fine and that I couldn't afford staying out of school for much longer. Taya hasn't left my side for days on end. Usually I would be annoyed by this gesture, but this time, all I need is my best friend.

We got out of her car as I mentally prepared myself for school. I can't do this. I can't do this. Just as if on cue, Taya's hand slipped into mine. I look up at her.

"You can do this. And if you want out and it gets too much, we'll leave, okay?" I nodded my head and took a deep breath. "I got you."

We walked through the school doors together, hand in hand. I tried to keep my glare at what was straight in front of me in order to ignore the spectators. Word gets around fast here, especially considering it was Nic who died. The school's golden boy. Soon enough there were eyes fixed on me in the hallway. Whispers were all i could hear.

"Oh my god, she actually came back."

"Camila's back"

"This is so sad."

I took another breath, Taya's grip on my hand tightened. I'm okay. I'm okay.

I'm okay.

As we were walking the 'clickety-clack' sound of Shaylen's heels were all i could hear as she scurried towards us, almost falling twice along the way. She rushed toward me and grabbed my hand, although scratching me with her fake, long, manicured nails, she didn't take note.

"Oh Camila, I'm so sorry about your loss." She said and suddenly swung her head toward Taya. "So i hooked up with aaron last night and he totally came way too fast. But like he made it up to me by eating me out and ive never been eaten out and -" She saw Ivy scurry to her locker besides where we were standing. "Oh my god how sad." Shay laughed. "But anyways as i was saying-" Blah blah blah blah blah. I couldn't take it.

I walked toward Ivy.

"Hey." I said awkwardly.

She turned to look at me and almost immediately her eyes darkened. "This." She held up a picture of Nic that she took off her locker. My heart cracked. It was the photo i took of him at his family lakehouse last summer. He was laughing and covered in icing from the cake Ivy threw at him. "This is all your fault." She threw the picture of him at me, slammed her locker shut and stormed off.

Taya looked at me. My eyes were tearing and struggled to breathe, taking multiple breaths per second. Everything started spinning.
I'm fine. I tell myself over and over again. My heart was racing. All i could think about was him. I can't do this. Everything felt surreal.

Taya sprinted toward me, her hand went on my shoulders. "Mila! Mila, are you okay?" I couldn't utter a word. My legs felt weak and i collapsed out Taya's grip and onto the floor, in front of everyone. And suddenly, I burst into tears.

"I can't do this anymore" My voice was muffled. People were rushing over to help me. Taya and Mike helped me up and escorted me out of the school.

I didn't look up as i sat down other stairs of the school. Everyone was in class by now.

"I'm taking you back to my place." Taya said. Mike butted in. "I'm coming with you guys. I've been friend's with Mila for almost 12 years. I'm not leaving her when she's in this state.

That's when i looked up at them and smiled. "I love you guys."