Confessions from my Nightmares

Found

Knock, knock, knock

"Don't answer it. Go to the bedroom"

"But-"

"No."

I drifted my way to the bedroom

I felt like I was floating

Even though my feet felt like stone

Pound, pound, pound

I wanted to see you

I promise I did

But I was scared

Because

Then the thought hit me

How did you find me?

I sat on the bed and begged the day to be over

I begged the sun to come up

I prayed for this nightmare to be over

I wished for you to be gone

But

You weren't

And you didn't leave.

You threatened my friend

She threatened to call the cops

I threatened to leave the bedroom

But only one of us followed through with our threats

Because

You were determined

She tried to be my hero that night

You tried to convince her that you would change

I could hear you

Sobbing and Begging

Pleading and Lying

Those four words

They kill me every time

I fall for them every time

I could practically taste the words through the wall

"I promise I'll change!"

"Baby I know you can hear me!"

You screamed

You begged

You sobbed

You lied

"Come home! Please!" 

"No..."

I contemplated

I cried

I hurt

I stayed

"Just leave, she can do better than you. I know what you do to her"

She shook her head

She sighed