Life Without You // Grethan Fanfic: The Trilogy

Chapter 4

Grayson's POV:

"Well.. do you? Will asked. I knew exactly who they belonged to but I was afraid to say.

"Umm.. no I uh, didn't get to see them.." I lied. I wasn't gonna make myself look ridiculous over my imagination (hopefully).

"Don't you have cameras?" Tyler asked. 

"Yeah I do," I told them and they jumped up from the sofa. 

"Let's go take a look then," The said in unison as they stretched their arms out. I decided to ignore them both and get up on my own. I felt the blood from my forehead trail down my eyebrow. 

"Actually.. let's get that taken care of first," Will suggested and sat me down onto the sofa. I looked at him in confusion. Why was I gonna sit down if I had to go to the hospital.

"What are you doing? Shouldn't we be going to the hospital then?" I asked as I looked around for a towel or anything that could temporarily stop the bleeding.

"Nonsense, I'll be right back," Tyler said, dashing out of the door.

"Oh yeah, Tyler's a doctor so he knows how to do this stuff," Will told me as soon as he saw how fucking confused I was. I sat back up and Tyler came rushing back with a suture kit. While he was stitching my cut up, I couldn't help but think about what had happened. It's almost as if I knew who the person was but.. I didn't. This was all too much for me so when Tyler had placed a bandage over the stitches, I got up and walked towards the stairs.

"I'm going to be guys, I'm exhausted," I said, not turning back.

"But what about the cameras? Don't we have to-" Will started saying.

"Goodnight!" I yelled and closed the door. I didn't want to talk about what had happened anymore. I was afraid I'd slip up and reveal who I thought it was only to look ridiculous. I knew that if I told them who I thought it was, I'd end up going to a mental hospital and stuff. I knew they would want to check the cameras but honestly I wasn't worried. They don't know I have some everywhere around the house, except that spot by the kitchen. So they aren't gonna see anything. I guess this will be my little secret.

*A few weeks later*

"Bye guys! Come back soon!" I yelled as I waved to them walking into the terminal. Will and Tyler were going to stay here in LA but something came up with Will's family and they had to go for a few weeks, which left me all alone again in my huge house (not to brag). I headed home and turned on the radio. The song "Chasing Cars" by Snow Patrol was on and I turned up the volume. Ethan used to love this song. I wonder what he'd be doing if he were right next to me at this moment. Would he sing along? Dance? Probably both because with him, every car ride was like a dance floor. I sighed as I realized that that would probably never happen again. Sometimes, I still couldn't believe that he was gone. I guess 10 years isn't enough to get over the person you loved with all your freaking heart. 

I got home, took a quick shower and changed. When I was done changing, I decided to walk into the room that I had made for Ethan. Now, it may be creepy to some people how I simply made a room for my dead twin brother, but honestly this has actually helped me. This is the way I feel him with me at all times in the house. I walked in and stared at the vaguely familiar room. I had made this room exactly like the one he had back in Jersey. Same wall color, same furniture, same everything. Except maybe a bit bigger. I walked over to his bed and layed down. Memories of us cuddling together came rushing to my head. I wished we could still do that now but we can't obviously. Unless I go to the cemetery and go dig up his grave and cuddle with him there until I die and go join him once and for all. I got up and looked around. This place sucked when I was alone and now that Will and Tyler were gone, I was honestly so bored to the point where literally anything would entertain me. I decided to call my best friend Sophia. 

Sophia and I both worked at the school and when I first became a teacher, she was the one who introduced me to the school, helped me get around and you know was just there when I needed someone. She knew about Ethan and what had happened to him and all that because I told her when we became closer to the point now where we are nearly inseparable. She was never really busy or never actually did stuff (cause she was single) so it really didn't matter that I called her to come over, cause she usually would. 8 out of 10 times, she'd be out the door before I even hung up.

"Hello?"
"Sophia! Hi, how are you doing?"
"Oh I'm good. How are you? Things going ok?" No.. not really actually
"Yeah I'm just extremely bored right now."
"Where's Will and his boyfriend? Did they go on another date?"
"No, actually they left to New Jersey for a while because something happened over there. That's why I'm lonely and bored."
"And I'm guessing you're calling to ask me to go over..?"
"Ah.. you know me so well."
"I don't know if I should though.. I'm pretty busy." Those were lies and I knew it.
"But you love me.." I
"Yeah yeah whatever. I'll be over in 5."
"Alright! Thanks haha I'll be waiting." And with that, she hung up.

When Sophia got here, we ordered pizza, watched movies, ate, laughed and talked all night long, not caring that we had to wake up early the next day to go to school. We were enjoying ourselves and didn't give a fuck about the days that would follow this one. At the end, we were drinking wine and talking about random stuff.. again.

"So, what would you do if Ethan wasn't actually dead?" Sophia said, casually bring it up.

"Um.. I don't know actually. I mean it's been 10 years and I guess it won't be easy for me to just see him there in front of me," I answered, not caring about what she had just asked.

"No but like what WOULD you do if you see him or he, I don't know, shows up one day?" She asked again. These are weird questions.

"Hug him maybe. Tell him how much I've missed him and how much he still means to me probably," I said taking a sip from my wine glass. "Why are you asking?"

"Oh no I was just wondering. I was staring at his picture in that shelf over there and the question just popped into my head, you know?" She said, pointing to the shelf across the room. 

"Oh well yeah I guess that's what I'd do," I repeated. We finished off talking about how I should get a dog to keep me company and all that. After finishing our wine, Sophia said good-bye and was on her way home. I washed the dishes, looking out the window to see the same eyes I saw weeks ago. Thing was that by now, I wasn't scared anymore. It was sort of like a daily thing I guess. I'd wash the dishes, I'd look out, I'd spot the eyes outside my window and then he'd sprint away. Although every time I see the person, he'd be further and further away from the window, to avoid being seen I suppose. I didn't even care anymore. I was used to it I guess. I finished and dried off my hands, turned off the lights and headed towards my room, ready to go to sleep.

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Heyyy!

So I managed to get this chapter up today! Congrats to me :) I usually upload on Saturdays/Sundays but I had some time today so I was like "why not" and wrote away lol

Next chapter(s) are gonna change the course of the story... hopefully

Yeah, also I've noticed I've lost popularity lmao. With the other books, people would read them faster and now I get like 1 read per day haha. C'mon and help a guy out by spreading the word. Lol jk don't haha

Well yeah, have a great rest of the week and enjoy these next few chapters 

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