for you

it's not you

My eyes graced over the figure of a man that stood around the corner of the room. My heart stopped for a moment then beat at a fast pace letting me know that it was you indeed. My breath quickened as that man stepped back letting half of his face show. I knew that jawline perfectly, I had traced over it so many damn times. He laughed, and oh that laughter caused me so many emotions, I knew it all too well. That raspy laugh, so contagious that could light up an entire room. A small kiss on the cheek brought me back to reality and I looked over to the guy who had placed his hand around my waist, as if claiming me. As I stared into his eyes I knew I was never his. That smirk that appeared on his face didn't cause me any emotion. Some laughter from across the room made my head turn in a second making our eyes meet for an instant, and that's when I knew that I belonged completely to you, to that man whom I had loved for so long. A small peck on my cheek made me realize that no matter how much he tried or how many kisses he gave me, it won't ever be enough. My eyes never left yours, not even as you made your way toward me. As if in slow motion, it all came to me, that no matter how much I caressed his body, or the times I'd run my fingers through his hair, or how much he fills up my body with trails of small kisses, it won't ever be the same sensation. No matter how much he makes me laugh, or how many times he holds my hand and sings to me, or holds me tightly reassuring me, my heart won't ever belong to him. No matter how many times he runs his fingers down my back and pleasures me, or the many times he's made me moan, my body does not belong to him. I met your eyes again and that's when I knew that no matter how hard I tried moving on, my heart, body and soul belonged completely to you.