for you

I vow that it won't be easy.

It would be much simpler and easier to say I promise to always be there for you through the good and bad, to protect you, to guide you, and to love you till death do us apart, but the thing is our relationship hasn't been this easy or simple. It's been more than just a promise, its been made up of flaws and imperfections, of ugly truths and straightforwardness. It wasn't always love, it was doubts and fears and everything else that followed it. If you ask me, I don't remembered when exactly was it that I started to catch feelings for you. Maybe it was one of those many times that you called me late at night, drunk, telling me how much it would brighten up your day each time my name appeared on your phone. Or maybe it was that one day that I woke up to a text from you with the most sincere "I miss you". I guess I knew I was so into you the moment I started listening to rock music just because I missed you and oh-gosh I don't even like rock music. It hasn't been easy and I don't think it'll get any easier. I can't say that I promise to not hurt you, that it will all be rainbows and butterflies, that the things we've planned out we'll come out as expected, because truth is that it won't be easy. That's what I vow to you; I vow to be there for you, through the doubts and fears, through the pain and through obstacles, through the dark skies and the fights. I vow to love you at your worst, when you feel like giving up, I vow be the one who holds your hand and puts her shoulder so you could be vulnerable. I vow to carry the weight you won't be able to carry on some days, to tell you the truth even if sometimes it hurts. I vow to not walk away from the person who has seen the worst in me and yet has stayed, to reassure you, us, each every day that even through the darkest times, that we can get through it all. But above all, I vow to love you the way I always have, the way I always will, to be forever yours, physically, emotionally and soulfully.