Her smile,His world

Trust

"What do you want, Jason. What do you want from me?" There I go, I ask him, finally, my voice lowering in the end.

He stops in his tracks along with me. I look up at him with a sense of anxiety in my heart. I don't know why but I can't shake this feeling when he is looking down at me with such intensity.

His eyes bore down into mine and I hold my breath.

"You." One word. He just whispers one word but that was enough to shake the walls on my heart. But I hold them with all my might.

I swallow hard, hoping to remove the lump in my throat.

Seconds pass by with us staring at each other. I don't know how to reply. I don't. But he knows.

"I want you,Tashi. I want all of you from you. I know- I know it's too much but... " I take a step back, my hand falling away from his.

I blink up at him then look down taking a deep breath. What is he saying? What is going on? This is wrong. So wrong.

My heart hammers against my chest at his words, my hands shaking as I run them through my hairs in nervousness.

But he takes a step forward towards me, stopping my thoughts.

"Don't run away from me." My knees wobbles at his words. Stop! I wanted to yell but I am unable to form a single word.

"I- You don't know me." I reply when I am able to form a sentence.

"And I want to know what I don't know about you."

"You wouldn't like it when you know me." I whisper in a low voice, looking up at him in desperation,trying to make him understand.

"If you think that about me then you also don't know me." He reply back with determination in his voice.

Another step forward and he is infront of me again in my personal space. My mind clouds with his manly scent.

"I want you, Tashi. And when I want something, I won't let it go. I know you hide that you are hurt behind that smile but I don't want you to hide it from me. I want to hold you , to let you know I'm here and always will be. I can't- " He runs his fingers through his hair impatiently before suddenly grabbing my shoulders pressing me against him, making me gasp.

"-I can't see you like this. I don't know what on Earth is happening to me but I have never felt like this before. But whatever it is, I like it. I like you. All of you. I just want you to know that you can trust me." My eyes tear up at his words, teeth grinding in my mouth to hold myself from lashing out.

Trust.

"I don't know how to trust anymore. I don't know for a long time. And I am okay with it. I don't want to make the same mistake again by trusting people." I reply evenly. I don't know he is paying that much attention to me and that overwhelms me. Knowing that someone cares enough to pay attention to me. But that scares me as well.

"You don't know because you don't try to. Just try and you will. But I won't break your trust, do you hear me? I won't! I don't know what I am saying but what I am saying is truth. I am not good with this all lovey-dovey stuff-" Despite myself, my lips twitch slightly.

"-But I have never felt this need to protect someone, to have someone by my side,to make someone happy. And you are that someone for me. " I suck a deep breath at his confession. But the doubt is still waving it's flag in my mind.

"It will vanish. All this feeling will go away." I look down at the ground and watch drops of liquid slapping on the ground. Then I realize, they are my tears.