Love that Grows from Hate (A B.A.P Fanfiction)

Chapter 5 My Journal

[Narae's POV]

7:00 AM: At school

As I sat down on a bench, last night's dream hit me in face, reminding me of my dirty nightmare. I shivered at the thought of it. The only thing to do to get it out of my head is to write it down in my journal.

After I finished writing my dream in my journal of secrets, I closed it and was about to put it away when a hand quickly took it out of my hand. I looked up not as surprised as to who it was: Yong Guk.

¨Wow!!! What is this? Your dairy? Hehe aren't you to old for this?¨ He said pointing to my journal.

I just stared at him with no interest as to what he have to say or do.

Wow I love the new me so much!!!!

¨Give it back. It has no use to you.¨ I simply said without stuttering.

¨Oh okay here you go.¨ He said as he handed me the journal.

I was surprised he did that because he usually don't do that. He looked at me and turn back to go to his friends who was sitting on the table behind me.

Daehyun and the others waved at me but I mainly waved back at Daehyun rather than to the others.

12:00 PM: Lunchtime

¨What is everyone talking about?¨ I ask Jungmi and Seo Hwa as I sat down next to them.

¨Oh uhhh, Yong Guk texted the whole school that he has a special announcement today at lunch.¨ She replied without looking up from her phone.

¨oh that's it.¨ I said in an uninterested tone.

¨Yep,¨ they both said together.

¨Hey everyone can I get you attention please!!!¨ yelled Himchan the loudest in their crew.

Everyone turn to look at them on the second floor. Yong Guk came out holding a familiar sky blue journal. My eyes widen as I quickly search through my bag but couldn't find it. When Iooked up, Yong Guk seem to enjoy my misfortune. I could hear my heart pounding and my thoughts saying that hopefully it is not mine but I mainly hear my blood boiling.

Yong Guk open his mouth to read whatever was in that journal.

¨I wonder if your my guardian angel. You were there when I cried and you comforted me. I thought that no one could be this nice to me but now that I have met you I think there is more people like you. If only you knew that my heart beats only for you.¨ he paused and let out a long chuckle and then continue, ¨I love you, Daehyun. If only I could say these words to you. I would die just to hear you say ¨I love you too, Narae.¨ He could hardly breathed when reached the last line.

He then broke out in hysterical laughter and so did everyone except for Daehyun who just stared at me with his unreadable eyes. My friends stood there in disbelief not believing what just had happened.

I felt hot tears rolling down my face and hear it dropping on the floor, I was angry but my tears had finally won. I ran out of the cafeteria as fast as possible with my friends following me and other student's hands pointing at me.

Once I got to my secret hideout on the school campus, I let the hot tears roll down my face from embarrassment, not from being humiliated in front of the other students but in front Daehyun. My friends stood in the doorway understanding that I need my space right now.

Once I was done crying, I walked up to my friends and hugged them.

¨We're sorry we weren't able to do anything to stop it.¨ they both said with pity in their voice which annoyed me.

¨It is fine, it is my problem not yours.¨ whispered back to them.

2:15 PM- P.E

Great I had Yong Guk and Daehyun in this class.

The other students were snickering, laughing and pointing at me as I pass by them but I just ignored it all.

Yong Guk said something but thanks to my earphones I barely understood what he said.

After the third lap, I was almost to the finish line but suddenly I fell, realizing that some girls had tripped me. They spat on me while I was on the ground.

¨You think that Daehyun would like a girl who hardly looks like a girl!¨ one of the girls yelled at me with her squeaky voice and they all took off laughing.

I just stood up, laughing to myself and the pain and continue to the finish the lap, ignoring the blood dripping down my leg.

Once I finished, I ask the teacher if I could go see the nurse since I was bleeding. I saw Daehyun and Yong Guk while I was going to the nurse's office. They were waiting by the boys locker room for the teacher to finish up so that they can go change. Yong Guk had his shirt off, showing his built body while Daehyun kept his on. Daehyun stared at me with pity which really annoyed me.

Yong Guk said something but I just ignored him and kept on walking to the nurse office.

I had a couple of minute to change into my school uniform after the nurse cleaned my scab.

The bell rang as I finished dressing.

I walked out the gate, ignoring the laughter that was meant for me. After a few steps a outside of the gate I saw Yong Guk and his friends laughing while reading my journal. Even Daehyun was laughing which cause a unbearable burning sensation inside of my heart. My only thought was ¨He does not feel the same towards me.......¨

My mood then change, I got so mad that I walked up to them without even realizing it until I was a step away from him.

Everyone took out their camera to film whatever was going to happen.

¨Give me my journal back.¨ I said sharply.

¨How about no.¨ He said as he gave me a dirty look.

¨GIVE IT TO ME!!!!!!¨ I yelled at him and then kneed him in his family jewels also known as his genitals.

He fell down crying in pain while the other students were laughing uncontrollable. Before I could grab my journal, Yong Guk handed it to Daehyun who quickly put it in his bag and know that I wouldn't be able to do anything.

I couldn't do anything but walked away since I did release my anger already even though I regret not fighting for my journal.