Finding Her....Last Love 2

Fear

Reshu

Yash held me to his chest warmly in the darkness, all which could be heard were waves crashing on to the shore. I kissed him, I kissed my best friend. I broke the friend code. As realization dawned , I hid my face more into his hard chest; ''Look up'' he whispered but I refused shaking my head. I don't know what he must be thinking of me right now. Oh God!! I feel pathetic. I felt warm fingers on my chin as he lifted my face to meet his eyes. My breathing quickened , so did my heart. Yash was the first man I kissed or I wanted to kiss again desperately; ''Talk Resh''

''I...I..'' was all I could say, he smiled affectionately pressing his lips on my cheek firmly; ''It's ok sweet heart. Let's go back. I still owe you the dance'' Wrapping his arm firmly around my waist , he walked me back to the restaurant. I couldn't help but notice how easily his hand slipped from my shoulders to my waist within few hours. Its not that I mind, but what surprises and scares me is my feelings, I know I want more and I am scared that I might lose it all.

Taking me to the dance floor, Yash lifted my hands wrapping them around his neck. Without breaking the eye lock, he pulled me closer by my waist and I went to him effortlessly. I felt like being in a dream, hypnotic. His eyes, smile and touch was making me forget all. Placing my head on his chest I moved as he guided me. He kept whispering sweet words into my ear pecking my forehead every now and then. I remember another guy asking me for a dance but before me it was Yash who bluntly refused the man , making him retreat. It made my heart flutter as his arms tighten around my form. I felt protected adored an above respected.. Wrong or right. Good or Bad , I don't know. For now, I just want to stay lost in this little perfect world of mine.

I didn't utter a single word on our way back home. I was confused, I don't know what to feel and call this new feelings. Once back I jumped off without looking back. I needed time to clear my head, I am sure , my face must be red with embarrassment as every second the kiss comes back to my head. With quick steps I moved to the room door and next minute I was pulled off it. ''We need to talk Resh'' As he dragged me to his room, my heart started pacing again. Is he going to kiss me again. I mentally slapped myself for the thought. Yash locked the door and turned to me, he made me sit on the edge of the bed , squatting infront of me; ''What's going on in your head Resh speak up'' My throat went dry. What should I speak? About the Kiss!! But how?? I never thought something can turn me speechless too and above all it had to be a kiss with my best friend; ''Yash, we shouldn't have kissed. '' When I heard nothing in response, I lifted my eyes to meet his. He was staring at me frown and a palm on his face. I felt my body heating up. Pulling my legs back I tried locking them together, suddenly I felt exposed. ''You are my best friend, I never saw you as a guy''

''Wait! You don't believe me to be a man . Seriously Resh !!'' I smiled, I knew he did that to make me feel comfortable and it worked. ''I never kept you in the bracket of guys I would or want to kiss''

''Cut the kiss, just tell me how many kissable guys are there in your bracket'' That made me blush, he lifted my chin up with his finger; ''I am asking so that I can murder all of them and close the bracket with just one name, Mine'' My breath hitched, heart shuddered and mind lost all its focus. I found myself trapped under his hypnotic gaze; ''You were saying'' He asked with a smile. I felt myself losing the battle again. But its necessary that we talk, I can't go about being embarrassed about the moment we shared. I just don't want to be awkward around one person I adore the most. Closing my eyes I broke the spell he was creating, pushing him back softly I pleaded; ''Yash we need to talk. Please'' He gave me a beautiful smile and nodded again.

''What happened was an accident. I didn't wanted to, I just didn't expect myself to do that. You are my best friend. Someone beyond attraction , jealousy or possessiveness. What happened at the beach , can complicate things between us, which I don't want. I just loved the way we were, I want that Yash. Our friendship and just that'' I spoke in one go and looked at him, he was watching me intently; ''What do you mean Resh''