Finding Her....Last Love 2

Her First Step

Yash

When I opened my eyes, it was still dark. Extending my free arm, I picked my mobile off my side rack, it was 4:30 AM. I took a deep breath realizing I could sleep some more. My eyes moved to the Resh sleeping on my other shoulder. She looked calm, free of any inhibition or worry. Turning towards her, I flattened my cheek over her head.

Yesterdays little discussion made me realised how emotional she is. During our university days, I thought her to be a practical tough girl, on the contrary she turned out an emotional one. My arms tightened around her and she hummed settling down. I couldn't help but wonder how a small incident left her scarred to open her emotions up. She is looking for affection but fears to commit. I know hoe that feels, I have been scared to commit for years. I would run for my life, if a girl expressed interest it me. Jane, my colleague and friend in US was first to notice my discomfort and ask me to see a therapist. She felt I was keeping my anger bottled up. She said it would harm be in long run. I took her advice and saw a therapist. Where I finally opened about my feelings. May the comfortability of sharing with an unknown person or my desperation to be free of the pain.

I smiled, I should be thanking Jane for pushing me to take the step. After many sessions, the therapist asked me to talk it out with someone I trust, I did with Jane. I told her all, my two heart breaks and about my feisty best friend. Jane would ask me many questions and I answered all. It was her who noticed my fondness about Reshu. It was her who made me realise that it was all the way Resh who occupied my mind and my thoughts. That when I decided to come and find her. I realized it wasn't just finding about her whereabouts, but the girl I had befriended. The fearless, bold Reshu. The one I met is broken scared and someone who had build big walls around her.

''You are thinking about me'' She whispered breaking my thoughts. I smiled at her. She stared at me with lazy eyes, still cocooned in my arms, ''I know I am an emotional wreck and you must be thinking what kind of girl you have fallen for. Sometimes I feel I am overreacting about the thing that happened in past.'' With a deep breath she turned quiet.

Pushing my torso up , I leaned against the head board of bed. Resh joined me, leaning her head on my shoulder. Intertwining our fingers together, I lifted her finger tips to my lips, ''Resh, emotions are never wrong. Good or bad, fierce or mild, emotions depict your truest self. Certain things hurt us more than it hurts others. It's ok to be an emotional wreck, it shows how strong you are. You have made yourself something fighting that broken heart of yours. I am proud of you Resh'' Pecking her forehead, I added, ''and myself , for losing my heart to you.'' She blinked a couple for time staring at me and then smiled hiding her face in my chest. ''I am glad you are here Yash.''

''So am I love. So am I.'' I responded, holding her close. We stayed there until the dawn. Resh left the bed, waking me up with a peck. I rolled around the length and breath of my bed happily, 'best birthday ever.''

***

After freshening up I heard the two girls chatting, no rather bickering. It appeared Shikha was pestering Resh about something and I decided to stay in. I have a fair idea what that girl must be pestering Resh about. I just can't afford to face Shikha. I know what she is probing Resh with and I am in not in a situation to face her scrutiny.

Moving to the balcony, I thought a lot about Resh. Her inhibitions and fears. It has somehow affected her personality too. She isn't the same girl who would speak her mind freely but this one was no where close to the girl I knew. I made a decision, I will throw her into situations where in she will be forced to react and throw her emotions out. I checked the date , I just have 2 weeks before I go back to Delhi and then US.