Rena pov
I didn't think there was any way of getting out of here anytime soon, I didn't like this. I needed to get out of here, I needed to get Liam out of here, but I couldn't bring myself to do that either.
I was going to find my way out of here one way or another, I felt good knowing I had leftover matches. I was going to burn this place down to the ground, I knew I wasn't in the right frame of mind, but it really didn't matter one way or another.
I pulled a hand through my hair thinking things through, I would burn myself along with it if I could. I knew I was going to need allot of gas to fuel the fire.
I shivered as the thought and determination came to mind, I didn't know what to expect. I did whatever I could though to get through this, I felt a little better since I got the help, but I still didn't fully feel like myself again.
I could and would never be normal, I gathered everything I could find and got all of my stuff together. I didn't want to have to worry too much about anything but myself, I just hoped it would be alright.
I looked for Liam really quickly and then just left, I was going to sneak out of here whether it killed me or not. I knew the orderlies would hate for me to leave, but I had to do what I had to do.
I was afraid of being caught, I felt as if I was trapped though. I made my way towards another part of the building away from my bedroom, I didn't want to make a big deal of this. I was just afraid of what would happen, I didn't know what to make of everything.
I didn't know what to do, I didn't know where there was a way out. I avoided anybody I thought would try to stop me and keep me from getting away. I made my way through the maze of this building and hoped I would find my way out.
I knew something was wrong here though because our headmaster was a little off color, I found my way down to the basement and tried finding a door. I smiled as I found one, I didn't know my way around here, but I couldn't help trying at least.
"Halt, who goes there. You're not supposed to be down here miss lovelis."
I shuddered a little as I heard a voice then, I thought I had managed to get here alone. I knew this was too easy, I slipped behind the door not knowing how they'd found me.
I did whatever I had to, I was happy to finally see the lightness. Even if it was dark and nighttime, I heard banging somewhere behind me, I knew it was either a gun or a door. I wasn't going to get out of here unscathed.
I was out of breath but pumped myself to move faster, I didn't want to be the one to die tonight. I didn't know how long it would take for me to get out of here, I just needed to get past the gate and set this place on fire and I would be good.
I had a torch with me I had managed to capture while I had been on the run, I knew I had the fire, now just knowing whether or not I could get the place to alight was the question.
I shrugged the thought from mind not really worrying and tossed the torch as far as I could, I smiled and laughed a bit as I saw it catch fire. I was afraid of being caught, but I couldn't be too afraid, I wasn't bugged. This felt so freeing, I didn't feel as if I had to worry too much.
"You've gone too far Rena, you've been through allot. But think about all of these people in there that could die, not everybody is a ghost love."
I shivered a little as I felt Luke's hand on mine, I didn't like this much. I ignored him and wondered what I had done, I didn't care though, I could just watch the place burn to the ground and not even worry about it.
"You don't know what I've been through Luke, you've never been there. Nobody has, nobody knows what I've been through. Nobody understands what I've gone through, I've been broken one too many times."
I didn't know what to expect, I bit my lip as I told him this. I was beyond angry, I was spiteful and I didn't have anyone to talk to, everybody was dead and I didn't have anyone to talk to.
I didn't want to have to worry too much, but I would do whatever I could. I just hoped it would be alright, I wanted to leave here and never turn back.
"I just want to leave here Luke, I want to leave and never come back. I don't understand everything honestly."
I threw my hands up in the air in frustration, I didn't know what was or wasn't real anymore. I needed to relax, I needed to figure everything out, I didn't know what to do anymore.
I was so confused and just wanted all of my troubles to go away, I was afraid of all of the destruction and chaos I had caused here.
"It's alright Rena, you'll get through it. I'll help carry you along the way baby girl, it doesn't matter anymore, this world is coming to an end anyways. You can't control the actions of other people, you can only control yourself. And I do know what you're going through babe."
I looked to Luke and didn't know what this was, I wished I could just figure it out and get out of here.
"I don't know what's reality anymore Luke, I feel like I'm losing grip on everything in my life. Including myself."
I wrapped my arms around my shoulders and hugged myself, I just hoped I would get away from everything and everyone.
"You may not understand it right now baby girl, but I'll get you out of here. Just remember all of the good times we used to have together before Casey killed me. You've got to find it deep down in you to forgive him kitten."
I wiped at my tears and wished I could go back in time, I wanted to fix this. I knew I couldn't fix myself though, I was a lost cause.
