Dream Journal

October 2017

10/3/17

1. I dreamed I walked outside of my front door and Tabitha ran to my feet and I was so happy to see her.

2. I dreamed I was at a coffee shop. It was beautiful and looked fancy and I was in a seat facing the door which was glass. On the small table in front of me was my laptop. I was naked but in a blanket and I saw Emily from church outside in a dress, smiling and waving to me. I was worried she would see me naked but I wasn't that worried. I was then at another place in the same coffee shop, it was still by the front door, just closer. Outside of the front door, though, looked like a giant stadium for baseball. Micaela and her dad sat in front of me and I wasn't naked anymore. We were talking and Micaela had apparently gotten a big gig doing something. She had apparently had a talent she didn't know much about, no one did, but she got a job doing it after doing it once and it was performing puppet shows. I congratulated her and told her I'm proud of her for getting out there and learning more about her talents. We were then at a little baseball field that looked like it was where little league would play. It was night and it was just Micaela and I, on the silver bleachers, talking. I was thinking how much of a loser I was, how she had gone and done cool things and I was nothing.

10/11/17

All I remember was being in a car, I was holding a box of coacoa puffs for some reason, and I began crying.

10/12/17

I dreamed that I was at work and the assistant manager, Ms. Maureen, said that somebody was there for me. She said it was Micaela Morgan, apparently I had told her about her. So I looked at a co-worker and said "Dang-it, I was hoping that she would tell her, herself." So I was expecting Micaela, and apparently told Ms. Maureen to tell her something for me so I didn't have to see her. I walk out in to the food court and Micaela is dressed in this outfit almost like a bridesmaid, big umbrella and big dress, but some sort of 40s, 50s version. Her and Ms. Maureen are sitting a booth together and I'm smiling, sincerely though. I laugh at the outfit, not because it looks funny (but it did), it was a laugh cause I was proud of her for being in it. She was an actress or something, now, and was about to leave for a gig that she had already been accepted for. I don't know what I wanted to tell her, but I think I wanted to say goodbye.

10/16/17

I remember being in what looked like a mall, honestly it looked familiar as if I had seen the place in another dream- it was like an airport too. Like...it had the layout of the airports I've seen but there weren't any real ports of course. In the dream I worked there, like, Chick-Fil-A was there and it's where I worked. I saw my ex, Emily, and I was happy to see her and she was happy to see me but she kept the same expression as always, I just know that she enjoyed my company at least. I looked at my arm, walking toward her, and I had holes in it, like I had been doing shots of heroin and in my thoughts in the dream, I had done it with her or it represented her arm, not actually mine. We walked, I had an arm around her waist but in a weird way. Like I had her pulled extremely close, and I could feel just how thin she was. We walked and talked and I told her I missed her and she said she missed me too. She looked away from me a good bit as if ashamed of me or not wanting to see me. I brought her to a restaurant that was in the place and she went up to order food and I walked off a little, talking to somebody on the phone. I was called to go somewhere. I turned around and looked at Emily and I said to myself "she isn't coming back." for some reason in my mind I knew she was going to try and abandon me, slip away when I wasn't looking. So I turned forward and began walking and was suddenly on this long road, alone.

10/18/17

I dreamed I was at this festival, or carnival, or something and I was at this contest for building a machine or something. I wasn't part of it, but I was there. I saw one machine that a lot of people liked but I didn't and I said that it sucked and the person who made it came up to me and I even told her I didn't like it. She wasn't upset though, and we talked. I think we went on to a ferris wheel and I said "can I be honest?" and she looked at me with surprise as if I was about to say I loved her and I laughed and said that wasn't it. I told her that she didn't do bad, just in comparison to the others I thought it was bad. She accepted my opinion and smiled. Then we were at a mansion, it was as if we were at another point in life and her and I were friends. At this point in the dream I could really see her better. She was short and had short black, curly hair. Her skin was kind of pale. Se looked similar to a girl I saw in a dream back in 7th grade named Sophie but I don't know.
Anyways we were at this mansion with some other people, part of a group. I don't know what we were but I remember the mansion was on fire I think and we stepped outside with the rest of the group and there was a giant army plane landing in the distance. We stared because it was so large, and the plane in my dream didn't look like one that exists in real life, it looked a little futuristic. And then I looked at the girl and she looked at me and it was as if we knew what each other was thinking. Then it was as if time fast forwarded and we were in the same place. Her and I were together now or something and the same plane landed in front of us and a soldier came from the plane. We knew what it meant and I said in my head "We're being called to go to war...I'm scared. I'm scared, but I'll be brave!" And my heart was racing, I could feel the fear, but I stood strong ready to fight and the was the end.

10/?/17

I dreamed I was in this store. I dreamed of the store a couple of times but this time I was in the the store walking around and became aware that it was a dream. I began taking things and doing silly things, not caring what the people in my dream thought. I had fun and then started to wake up, I could even see the things in front of me as I began to wake up, but I told myself no, that I wanted to stay in the dream and have fun. So I drifted back asleep and was back where I was only this time I ran in to a girl. She had short hair, it was brown, that's all i can really use to describe her. I followed her and it was me, her, and a couple of other people randomly. We were in this room, it was still in the store but it looked like some ancient room made of stone. We were looking through some things. Apparently people would take this ancient object and it would make them want to kill themselves. I picked it up and looked at it. It looked like a pen, and that's it, but suddenly I was...cursed. I had a curse on me that would allow demons to follow me and they would torment me, and I became scared. I thought "this is what i get for trying to control my dreams...I can't live with this fear, this must be why they kill themselves" and I began to put the pen to my neck to kill myself but I resisted. Suddenly a portal opened, it was purple, and a large demon came out and charged at me and I was dead. I looked like a rag doll on the floor with blood all over me. The others lived and got away. How? I can't remember. But One had their hand get cut off still they survived but I was dead.