It's been almost 2 weeks without Gray, everyday I missed his cuddles and kisses more and more.
The girls took in turn of coming to visit me but I wasn't up for their conversation. I felt bad because I know it's not their fault that me and Gray ended, I didn't mean to push them away. I wanted company but I only wanted it from one person. Grayson.
Ethan texted me a couple times but it just made me think about Gray more. I deleted my twitter and made my Instagram private blocking out the hate it eventually stopped.
Gray or E probably made a snapchat or tweet about the breakup making the fans stop or something.
It was 2 days until school started and I dreaded it. I knew I'd spend the 2 days lounging around from the couch back to my bed, I've pretty much been doing that since we got back from LA.
It's so weird to me, I went from being so happy and in love, feeling like nothing could bring me down to now feeling like nothing matters anymore, like I can't ever be happy.
If I can't be with the guy who I'm in love with, then my life didn't feel worth it anymore.
I sat in the bath for hours thinking, when I realised I'd have to see him at school on Monday. I'd have to watch him pass me in the halls and act like nothing ever happened between us.
To act like we didn't know each other, I'd have to listen to people talking about us and pretend I didn't know what they were talking about.
Why did this have to happen to me, why couldn't I have met and fell in love with someone who didn't have millions of jealous angry fans. Why couldn't Gray not make videos with Ethan for a bunch of people to watch and fall in love with him just like it did. Why, why, why. I thought to myself.
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Friends to lovers
FanfictionGrowing up as family friends Grace has always liked Grayson but as they grew up she watched him date girls and break their hearts, so she moved on knowing it would never work but one day they are reunited You'll have to read on to see what happens ;)
