stronger | catthew (discontinued)

chapter one

>> carter's point of view <<

* *

Let's get one thing straight, I'm not. I know, I know, let me explain. She's not my girlfriend, she's simply a cover-up. I'm not ready to come out to anyone, not even the guys or my parents. It's my little secret. And something is driving me fucking insane, it's that I'm in love with my best friend, Matthew Espinosa. I know I have a shot with Matt - because he came out last year - but somehow I always find a way to convience myself I will never be with him.

* *

"CARTER! WAKE THE FUCK UP!" I open my eyes to tiny slits seeing Matthew jumping on top of me, "WAKE UP CARTER, WAKE UP, WAK- AH!"

I totally just kicked his legs out from under him sending him face-planting into the side of the bed, I try to surpruse all my laughs but I just couldn't and lost it before rolling out of bed.

"Mother of fuck!" he cursed, touching his nose, "fuck you, Reynolds."

I staggered to the bathroom rubbing sleep out of my eyes, I would love to fuck you Matt. I thought to myself as I grabbed my toothbrush and some toothpaste before blindly reaching for the light switch to the bathroom, still half asleep.

>> matthew's point of view <<

Well, I fucked up big time and I think Carter broke my nose. I love him and I have to act stupid all the time don't I? A loud knock on the door brought me out of my thoughts as I made my way over to it and opened it. Standing there was a grinning Shawn and standing next to him was a tired Taylor.

"Mind telling me why you have a huge ass hickey, Shawn?" I stole a glance at Taylor, who now had his head lying on Shawn's shoulder, "and why Taylor has major sex hair?"

"Shut up!" Shawn's hand flew to his neck in attempt to hide the hickey and Taylor lazily ran his fingers through his crazy sex hair trying to tame it.

"Come in love birds," I stepped back, "no fucking on my be-"

"I wouldn't dare," Taylor winked at Shawn in a joking matter, and Shawn's face instantly grew red. "Where's Carter? ARE YOU GUYS FUC-"

"Taylor!" I hissed, knowing what he was going to say, "no, no, no, no, no, no, no! He's straight as a fucking pole, we're not together."

"Have you seen the way he looks at you, Matthew?" Shawn asked, intertwining his fingers into Taylor's, "even a blind person could tell how much you two like each other just by the way you talk to each other. The little touches you think you're so sneaky about, which your not, the glances, everything you two do?"

I had to bite my tongue so I couldn't scream, my eyes connected with the ground, "no I don't."

Taylor drew back from where he had been kissing Shawn's neck, "I'm stupid, but not that stupid to see that you love him."

I gulped, "no, seriously I don't..."

"Stop bullshitting yourself," Taylor muttered before he went back to kissing Shawn's neck lazily.

Shawn leaned into Taylor's lips and smiled, "you shouldn't be afraid, Matthew."

"I'm not afraid," I say as I hear the shower click off, "and he's out of the shower so shut the fuck up and don't say anything about it."

"CARTER!" Shawn lept up, racing towards Carter to tell him, "CARTER! CARTER! CARTER!"

I snatched at Shawn and then got threatened by Taylor if I touched his boyfriend he would dropkick my ass off the balcony and I feel like living so I let him go.

Shawn whispered something to Carter, giggled, ran back over to Taylor and dragged him out of the room by his hand.

Carter's eyes connected with mine, and the next thing I knew his lips were on mine.

* *

a/n: hellllooooo! that was really fast-paced and short and cliche and fuck it was terrible but i promise things will slow down & get better. did you like all the taylor/shawn fluff? there will be more to come in later chapters as well as some ?/? and some ?/? aND POSSIBLY ?/? !!!! you just have to figure it out yourselves.

see you tomorrow you crazy mofos

xoxo, maddie