I talked about a girl I like in this book or whatever you would consider this. Her and I hold hands sometimes but lately I've been getting paranoid and feeling that people are looking at me. On Friday, we had a pep rally and we we held hands while passing by a girl I knew from middle school. I took my hand away and pretended to check my phone because I had a "message." She just looked at me and I could tell she wanted to say something but she didn't. Today we were were walking down the hall and past these teachers. I felt like they were shooting me with laser beams when they saw me holding a girl's hand. BUT LIKE I KNOW THERES NOTHING WRONG I ACCEPT AND SUPPORT THE LGBT+ COMMUNITY YET IM ASHAMED TO HOLD A GIRLS HAND. I'm such a hypocrite and it's pissing me the heck off. I want to be able to hold this pretty girl's hand and not have to overthink about people's reactions. Man, I hate life.
