I'm graduating in 2021. Although I'm still a freshman, you can apply for some scholarships. I am happy to say I'm applying for two of them, one which is due tomorrow and the other is due at the end of January. Basically on the application, it asks what are 4 colleges you're interested in. I live in a nowhere town at the bottom of Texas. Poverty is a big deal here. I want to leave and see if I could make something more of myself. I tried subtly telling my mom that I wanted to go to a college out of state by saying I don't "necessarily" need to take a certain test because only Texas colleges need it. She stared at me for a while and just said I lived in Texas. Yes, I love my family and friends but I want to see what's out there. I'll probably come back but at least I know I tried and I badly want to try. My dad didn't finish high school and my mom dropped out of college 3/4 times before finally graduating. I want to be the first to get through high school and college with no complications. It's always really scary thinking of it, but I've wanted this since middle school, maybe even elementary. I just feel guilty leaving my parents here.
