I Fell In Love With My Teacher

Chapter 20

I woke up to the sound of a faint beeping noise which was very annoying. I didn't open my eyes just yet as I heard voices, one of them I recognized as Sarah's.

"When will she wake up?" She asked frantically. What happened?

"Hopefully very soon. Don't worry dear we've taken great care of her," I heard a woman's voice say.

Once I heard the door close I decided to open my eyes and take in my surroundings. I was in a hospital? Wow I don't remember much.

"Oh my gosh! Leah! Are you alright!" Sarah was rushing her words and looked very frantic.

"Woah, calm down, I'm fine," I said groggily. God I feel terrible actually.

"Are you sure?" She asked concerned.

"Yeah but I've just one question, what happened?" I gave her a puzzled look.

Her face went very pale and her expression was unreadable.

"You really don't remember much?" She asked almost choking on her words. I shook my head.

"Oh Leah," she said and started to cry softly. She then took my hands and placed them on my stomach.

Oh no.

Please, please no.

I felt the colour drain from my face and small tears were threatening to spill.

"My baby..." I whispered. "My baby," was all I kept saying until I couldn't no more.

"I'll go get the doctor," Sarah said while drying her tears. The door closed and I lay there silently screaming. I can't believe this. Only one thing was going through my head right now.

It was his fault. Oliver. I can't face him now after this.

The door opened and in walked the doctor and my would-have-been midwife, Nurse Smith.

"Hello Miss Potter, I'm Dr Jenkins," he said while shaking my hand politely.

"As you now know, unfortunately you have suffered a miscarriage. All of us here are very and truly sorry for what happened. We took a few tests on you while you were unconscious and we discovered the reason for the miscarriage was stress. You must have been very worked up about something in particular," he said while glancing slightly outside. I'm guessing that he's here.

"Yes I was," was all I said in a small whisper. Dr Jenkins gave me a sympathetic look. Why did this have to happen to me?

"I'll leave you with Nurse Smith here," he said and left the room.

"How are you feeling sweetheart?" She asked comforting me.

"Awful," was all I could say. She wrapped her arms around me in comfort.

"I know how you feel, I went through the same thing when I was your age," she said. She told me about whenever she was with a guy she thought she loved and they slept with each other. She got pregnant and of course like Oliver, he was very happy to be a dad. But then she discovered he slept with another girl and she got so worked up and stressed, she had a miscarriage.

"You're exactly like me," I gasped.

"But only this time, you really do love this guy even after all you two have been through. Don't let anyone tell you that the love you feel now is fake because of your age. Love is love, you can't help how you feel and I know that the two of you will sort things out. Maybe one day you may try again for another baby," She said. I sat there deep in thought. What she just said really touched me, but I don't know if I can forgive Oliver for what has happened. Yes I do love him but I'm also heartbroken too.

"I'll leave you two to talk," Nurse Smith said and left the room. My heartbeat was beginning to increase, I don't know how I'm gonna face him after this.

I kept my eyes glued to the floor as I heard the door open then close. I'm so angry and so heartbroken. I've lost my baby for gods sake!

"Leah...I-I'm so sorry," he stuttered. I didn't look up to see his facial expression. I couldn't do it.

"Please talk to me," he pleaded. I can't, I just can't do it.

Then I felt him kneel down beside the bed and his hand over mine.

"Leah?"

I looked down at both our hands but I slapped him away.

"Don't touch me!" I shouted.

"Leah please let me explain!" He pleaded again.

"No! I can't! I can't do this!" I screamed. "I don't want you near me!"

"Can I at least talk to you?" He asked. I sat there in silence then he began talking.

"Look what I did was a huge mistake, I do regret it, I-" I cut him off.

"Then why did you do it if you regret it!?"

"Because I was foolish at the time, I didn't have you," he said sadly. I'm still mad though.

"I just don't know if I can forgive you for this," I said and placed my hand on my stomach. I saw his eyes began to water slightly.

"You have no idea how awful I feel, it killed me inside when the doctor told me. I knew straight away it was all my fault you had the miscarriage, I'm so sorry," he explained. He was about to take hold of my hands but again I shoved him away.

"No," was all said. He was about to protest then the doctor came in.

"Okay sorry to interrupt, Leah you are free to go now," he said and smiled softly. I was so glad I could leave, I never liked hospitals.

"Leah can we still talk?" Oliver asked.

"I'm sorry Oliver, I think we need to end this, us. We're not right for each other," I started to say while tears were forming in my eyes.

"Goodbye, Olly," I whispered and left the room with my stuff. I ran down the halls to get out of here, I need to get home.

*Oliver's P.O.V*

So we're officially over. She was my whole world, and the baby would have made everything even better. She's the love of my life I can't just let her go like that. I need her back again I can't screw up anymore.

When she ran out of the hospital room I broke down. She never wants to see me again and it hurt.

Please forgive me Leah.

*Leah's P.O.V*

I got home and threw myself on my bed. Oliver was constantly on my mind. I did what I had to do and that was to end it with him.

Thinking more about it now, it seems like the best thing to do. I mean he's a teacher and I'm his student! If the school found out he would get fired and I would be expelled. I do not want that happening.

Then other thoughts came to mind. He actually slept with Becca... Was she better than me? He probably preferred her and probably just took pity on me. Oh god what am I saying!?

Urghh why did I end it all!? I'm so stupid!

There's something I've kept to the back of my mind for a few years, something I used to do and I need to do it now.

I got off my bed and went straight to my wardrobe and searched and searched for the object I was looking for.

I finally found it. It was a box with things in it that I kept a secret for a very long time. I lifted the lid and brought the box into the bathroom.

I'm sorry but I have to do this, it'll make my horrible pain fade away...

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OOOOH CLIFFHANGER ONCE AGAIN!

What do you think she's about to do? You may be able to guess.

Sorry for this chapter being a bit short but I promise the next one will be much better!

I love you all and thanks for reading!

- Leah xxxx