Lies Are our Lives

Chapter 9: Lies

Dear Dumbass,

The lies are getting too big. It's been a whole summer,I'm fourteen and In Ninth grade and my parents don't know anything that has happened in the past two years or so.
So much has happened...yet they know so littel. Thanks to all the lies I kept feeding them.
They don't know that I got rejected by ginger still, they don't know that I failed an entire semester, and they definitely don't know that I'm gay.
I keep telling lies that they've pretty much have become my life.
Cat left the school and now I don't know how I'll make it through this year... But at least I still have Mary...I guess.
I've dragged her down to my level of lies and she's living a lie too...

"He's the perfect son!"

"He has a girlfriend and their perfect together"

"Who wouldn't love him?"

I keep hearing the same things! They expect so much from me still that it's draining me of the littel to no hope that I have left. Sucking away my life down with all of these-these-these lies!
...
And to make matters worse...I've hurt people and I've ruined people's lives with my lies.
Mary has agreed to pretend to be my girlfriend. But how long until my parents find out it's all fake?
The teachers have agreed that my parents won't find out about all my fuck-ups. But how long until they find out that I failed an entire semester?
How long until they find out that I'm gay??!

Mom: JONATHAN!!! YOUR LATE!

I threw my notebook and took a deep breath. I then did my usual routine to school.
I totally forgot to write in my journal about what happened...
About a month ago my cousin introduced me to this guy that's in her class. He seemed pretty nice until she told me he was gay. We've been talking for about a month now through my twitter account that I have on my tablet. And...he asked me if we could be a couple. I obviously said yes.
We finally reached school.
As per usual a counted the hours until lunch time so I could tell Mary about the guy.

2:30

I told Mary about the guy and right now we're going to the preschool area to be alone and so I can talk to him.

Mary: Imagine that you two adopt a child in the future-

Jonathan: We're are you going with this, Mary?

Mary: keep with me now, And the kid has like this Project for a family tree,right?

Jonathan: aha?

Mary: so is he gonna be like: "this is my dad! And this is my other dad!"

I immediately started to laugh

Mary: No! And then the teacher is all like: "oh...aren't their any..females in your family?"

I kept laughing

Jonathan: And he's just like: "oooooooh!"

Mary: and he gets out a picture that was in his pocket and it's a picture of me

Both: "THIS IS MY AUNT"

The both of us end up laughing so much that we totally lost track of time. From 2:30 it became 4:00 pm.

Jonathan: omygod

Mary: Ah. I couldn't stop laughing

Jonathan: me neither!

Mary: hey, what time is it?