The Screw Up

Prologue

I knew as soon as my eyes locked with his that we were mates.

Just looking into his dark blue eyes gave me shivers. Even though I was all the way across the cafeteria, I could smell his deep woodsy scent. I took a deep breath letting his scent invade my nose, never breaking eye contact.

"Move loser!"

Our eyes broke contact as the school slut, Dana, hit my back hard, making me fall forward. I hurriedly got up and I realized I had been totally blanking out and had held up the lunch line totally engrossed in his eyes.

"Sorry." I muttered with my head down in embarrassment and hurried forward.

I heard Dana and her gang of whores shriek with laughter at something I honestly didn't care about. I looked back over at the popular table and saw that he was gone.

Where did he go?

I slipped out of line and into the hall way. I walked forward and turned left and stopped in my tracks.

There, leaning against my locker was the one and only, my mate, Lucas Healy.

I takes my eyes over his talk form and muscled arms. He literally had muscle everywhere. But not overly muscled, just enough to be the strongest wolf around, minus his dad, the current alpha.

He got me back to reality by motioning with his head for me to follow him. He lead me down he hall to an empty class room.

We both stepped in and I closed the door behind me.

I turned around with a huge smile on my face. I was so happy right now. I had found my mate!

I faced Lucas and frowned. He didn't look happy. He was scowling at me with anger in his eyes. I was confused. He had just shifted for the first time yesterday. Wouldn't he happy to find me?

Sure I wasn't the most beautiful girl in school, I was average looking with long dark brown hair and striking green eyes. I was short for my age, 15 and I wasn't fat or skinny. Somewhere in the middle.

I also wasn't the most popular girl either. Somewhere in the middle, where he was all the way at the top. He was the alphas son. He was sixteen an in two years he would be alpha.

"I'm Shay." I said smiling at him.

"Lucas." he replied while looking down at his shoes and not at me. He didn't say anything else making we more confused.

I honestly didn't know what to say right now. I mean shouldn't he say something. He was the popular, confident guy here although he didn't look confident right now. I was average girl that wasn't popular at all.

"So," I started. "Were mates."

"I know." he said. Then he looked up and brushed his shaggy, light brown hair from his face, stood up straighter so i was literally looking up to see his face, and looked strait into my eyes and said with confidence.

"i don't want you."

I froze.

"What?" I asks stupidly. What does he mean he doesn't want me? We're mates for crying out loud.

"I reject you."

When he said that I almost fell over. My mate, Lucas, didn't want me.

He looked at me once more, with anger clear in his face, and left. He walked out the door without looking back.

I shrunk to the floor with tears streaming down my face. What the hell had just happened?

My mate rejected me.

I felt my chest tighten and my lungs close up. My breath turned ragged and I couldn't breath.

Why? Was the question I kept asking myself. What had I done?

That was the question I asked my self for whole years after that. That was the question that was eating me up alive.

After that day, I purposely got myself expelled from school. My family, ashamed of what i did, moved away. We joined another pack. But instead of continuing on with my life, I slowly ruined it, day by day. I started smoking, sleeping with random guys, getting drunk every night and partying all the time. I turned into the schools bad ass, that everyone was afraid of. I became the most popular girl in school. Everyday I would say to myself, If Lucas could just see me now.

People wondered why I did all this, why I got high all the time and drunk enough to pass out. Of coarse people never actually ask me to my face. they are to afraid. They don't know that i can hear their whispers as i walk the halls. The reason i did this was just to get away from reality, so wouldn't have to think of what a disappointment I was. My parents never knew why I did what I did to get myself expelled. And I would never tell them why. I would never tell anyone I met when we moved what I did to get expelled.

Of coarse i Was ashamed of what I had done but it was absolutely necessary. I could not stand another day in that school with him. I couldn't stand being in the same pack as him.

People also wondered why I slept with random guys, getting pregnant twice, but having an abortion once but giving up the other one for adoption. I did it to feel needed, to feel like I mattered even for those couple hours I with a guy.

I started wearing thick black eye liner around my eyes to hide the permanent red ring around them from crying my self to sleep. It haunted me every night that I ruined two child's lives. It haunted me that my mate didn't want me. It killed me inside that my parents were disappointed in me and ashamed to call me there daughter. Because I was a screw up. Lucas screwed up m life then I screwed it up more.

I was a screw up.

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