this one is longer, and kinda just thrown together. Since school has started, i've been struggling to stay sane, quite literally. So, i just needed to cope, and after i wrote this piece, i wanted to post it. Maybe it will show someone they're not alone
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tired of being sick
mentally, physically
my stomach constantly turning
my head constantly spinning
these cold voices turn slick
i let them take over willingly
the pain inside burning me
it's been like this since the beginning
the voices come back
trying to hold them away
screaming at my other half
don't know how long i'll last
i feel my mind begin to crack
my thoughts begin to sway
my other half only laughs
tripping hard over my past
standing alone in a field
filled with my mistakes
lies
and misplaced love
still haven't healed
my heart aches
i already see it in my eyes
everything i want too far above
this frozen water
has filled my lungs
all i can breathe
is the ice in my words
this monster
doesn't wanna drop his guns
his voice crawling underneath
everything i've built in this world
tears stain the sheets
in the place i call home
yet home is somewhere safe
and safe isn't with him.
hit the streets
don't care i'm alone
just need to escape
at least i know how to swim
so throw me in the deep end
i'm ready this time
unless my monster
decides he wants me to burn instead
save me
