What I Want, When I Want

Chapter 14. *the first trimester*

The first three months of pregnancy were terrible. Absolutely terrible. Whenever Santo had free time he came over and we either chilled or went out somewhere. Almost every morning I was so nauseous. I threw up, had to pee all the time, ugh. Terrible. My mom never knew of this, though. Santo told his parents who were excited for us, however I was going to either let my stomach grow and let my parents find out that way, or Santo's parents would come discuss it with mine. I felt bad they were going to be the last ones to know. But for now I had to tell my friends.

~the texts~

(Group chat: Callista, Aaleeyah, Johnae, Monique)

Me: guys, I have to tell you something.

C:what's up?

A: what happened

J:???

M: what's up boo?

(Here I showed them the picture of my positive tests)

C: Nikki. u serious??

J: 😮

A: omg yoooo

M: OMG! How long?

Me: couple months...

A: well way to keep a secret!

C: how come you didn't tell us?!

Me: I'm sorry. I was scared that if I told you, you guys wouldn't look at me the same way.

M: now why would that happen?

J: yeah, we love you too much for that

A: yeah. I should beat you tho

Me: oh no. this wasn't my idea..

A: Chresanto?

Me: yeah. and listen guys. please keep this on the DL for me?

C:gotcha

A: gotcha

M:gotcha

J: gotcha.

Me: okay. Let's talk at my house Friday night. sleepover.