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VII •Help me•

I feel like i can't breathe, he is standing in front of me and i have no idea, how or why. Shit the balcony door, i lock every part of down stairs but i don't lock up my own fucking room? i could have died! Oh come on be reasonable Haylee your on the third story of the house no one can - i look him - okay good, point never-mind. I move towards him but stay my distance, i admire him, every inch of him is familiar, right down to the smell of his cologne. I feel safe and wanted.

"A-Alex?" He just looks at me, then his eyes drift towards the wall where his lifeless face is drawn, He then begins to scan around the room, walking around and touching things, "What are you doing here Alex?" he stops and turns, moving slowly towards me, " I'm here for you, Hazey, i thought that would be, obvious?" I watch his head cock to one side, I move back more "You, You what?" A grin spreads across his face and i feel frightened, why? it's just Alex.

Yes it might be just Alex but it's been more than a year since you have seen him. We don't know him anymore.

"You heard me Hazey. I'm here for you, I want you, do you have any idea how long I've been searching for you that day after the hospital?" I gulp hard and start shaking my head as i back up, I've been trapped between him and the wall. "Too long baby, too long I've searched and waited" I can feel my heart beating hard against my chest and i'm sure he can here it. " Are you scared of me Hazey?" He lifts my chin so our eyes meet "No" I breathlessly respond my answer wondering if i could convince myself i am not scared of him.

"Good, you shouldn't be" I relax slightly, he leans in and his breath hits my face, due to the closeness of our lips. "You were gone Alex, why?" He doesn't move and whispers "I don't know, I'm here now that's all that matters, don't you think?" His lips are on mine and we move in sync, never once did i open my eyes but something didn't feel right. I don't feel the same fire i felt with Grayson, but i still felt the same Heat and Passion i did with Alex.

I put my hands on his chest and i push him away slightly. "Alex, you cant just walk into my life whenever you damn please, I'm not the same girl you remember, I've changed and can't just expect me to forgive you, i was hurt and broken, you left me remember?" He looked fucking pissed. "The difference is Haylee i came back!" I shove him "Yeah Alex a fucking year later you came back, my hero!" i walk over to my balcony door and re-open it, "Get out, Get out before i kill you Alex" he walks up to me and grabs me by the waste and pulls me towards him " i want you Hazey and i wont let anyone stop me, i get what i want, when i want" He roughly kisses me and leaves.

What have i done?

The water from the shower is running down my back and i'm staring at the stain on my bathroom wall while i'm standing here, getting out, i wrap myself up in the fuzzy towel that i laid out earlier. I decided to skip school tomorrow, my heart and head ache too much from the last couple of days, walking into my room i select some comfy clothes for today and get changed. An over sized hoodie falls to my knees which saves me putting on pants, i hated pants anyway.

I climb over into the blankets i have sprawled all over the bed and grab my PlayStation remote and TV remote and put on my current obsession, Riverdale and binge watch until i fall asleep. i wake up at 5 in the morning, i rush to the bathroom, i reach the toilet, with great timing too. I vomit everywhere.

2 Hours later and I'm still in here, i start to feel weak and I'm so cold, shivering everywhere, i cant call my Nona shes in Italy. Before i know it, I'm crawling for my phone and dialing Grayson Dolan.

"What do you want Haylee" My breathing becomes low and slow and my mouth is dry "Help me, Please" i drop my phone and it falls to the ground ending the call, somethings wrong i can feel it. I see nothing except blackness.