Rude - G.D //EDITING\\

N I N E

Next thing I know I was in Graysons car...I didn't want to.I look at him "What time is it?" I asked  "7:00 pm" he replys

"Please tell me your taking me home." I said pressing my hands to my face. "No I'm not"

"Why?"

"Your mom might beat your ass up."

I scoffed and looked out the window.

When we got back to his house we walk to the front door and saw ethan sprawled on the floor...I pressed my hand on my lips and tried to keep my laugh silent.

When we got up stairs grayson opened  the door telling me to go in "im gonna get you water just wait here". I nodded and sat on his bed looking around....im guessing this is his room?

I saw a jersey hanging on his wall and clothes piled in the corner. Goddamn Grayson...clean your Damn room... The door opens and he gives me water..."how are you feeling?" He asks.

"Better.." I replied..

I kind of miss him calling me baby girl....what happened?

His eyes drop to the floor. And then gets up walking to his bathroom I stand outside of it and saw him grab money from his cabinet. "Watch the door" he mutters "the lock is fucked."

"Grayson-"

"I need a hit" he hisses he slams the cabinet  closed.  I step infront of him before he leaves "don't even think about it." I grit my teeth. "Nina" he says leaning over me with his wet lips by my cheek "move out of my way."

I glance down at the cash clutched tightly in his hands as I take a step back. My eyes flash back  up to his. "Because  coke is totally going  to fix your temper right?"

"Nina" he says again  "move your cute ass out of my way before you really piss me off"

"I'm not letting ok grayson..im sorry that i care"

He slams his palm flat against  the wall by my eat "it's not fucking  up to you!"

But it is up to me.

He presses his lips together and glares at me. I reach over for the edge  of the door, fumbling  before I finally  get ahold of it and before grayson  can even notice I swing the door closed and shoved my weight  against  it until I stiffly clicks in place. The fucked up lock as grayson called it, just become my best friend.

It became silent,nm heart beated so fast and hard. "Are you kidding me?" He glances around as if there was a window. He nudges me to the side and wraps his hand around the door and starts to shake it willing the lock to release itself but he achieves nothing.

"Just give up." I say as I study  the veins in his arms. He places both hands on the back pain his neck before staining  to face the cieling letting out a few breaths."your jus  gonna have to find another way to distract yourself"

"Your becoming my distraction..." he mutters I didn't know how to reply to him...words rose in my throat but u couldn't speak. Then I finally  reply "why am I a distraction?"

He looks at me. He parts his lips to speak and murmurs "Because  you make things easier. Because  I get to focus on you instead of everything  else. My body was paralysed "then don't stop " I say with  a slight  tremble on my voice.he stared at me,  but he's blinking fast and breathing heavier. I reach up to touch his jaw, and his skin is burning  hot.

"Focus on me" I whisper

"Then distract me" he orders. He lifts his hands up grabbing my wrist and removes it from his face. "We can talk" I say. "We never once   just talked."

"Okay, let's talk" he says he sits down with his back pressed on the shower  door he extends his legs and sighs, his head hung low and eyes closed. What is he thinking about? Me?

"Can we walk about Emily?" He nods . I sit infront of him on the cold tiles and pulled my knees up to my chest and hugged them to my body. "I've notice there are time when your like done with Emily why don't you break up with her?"

"I can't break up with her."

"why?"

He shakes his head and places his hand on his face rubbing his eyes before groaning loudly  "Emily acts  like she's the nicest girl around. But she's not. The second you know you do something  wrong to her, she turns into a phsycopath. She knows  too much about me. I can't risk it. At least not right now."

"Phsycopath?...what does she know?"

"it's...." he pauses, he looked uncomfortable  almost pained "okay. Example back in January , she heard I'd been hanging out with this girl  during lunch period every Tuesday, which I totally  wasnt, and she went crazy. I slayed over my essay for science for two weeks, because my grades were dropping, and she told the teachers  that she wrote it and my entire grade dropped. I would've  dumped her back then, but she made it clear that I shouldn't  go there. So I never had. There are so many things  she can do, because she has the upper  hand in all of this."

"What else  dose she know?" I'm trying to absorb his words "as long as I stay with her until graduation she won't go to the cops about me. That's why inwas sucking up to her for a while ..you know, in American apparel and stuff..." his cheeks flushed in color of having to talk about that. "She likes to blackmail people into doing what she wants, so that she can stay on top everyone else"

"Wow.." I say..it was all I can say...

"Nina" grayson says. When I meet his eyes. His head his tilting  as he studied me. "Let's talk about you." He says he adds "tell me something that no one else knows..".....