Beyond the scene: Jung Hoseok x BTS

Part 5: how we think 2/2

I didn't notice how time flied and I sat in practice room reading tweets hour after hour. I didn't think how I had my sweaty workout clothes on or how my members could start worrying about me. I didn't notice that I had 16 missed calls on my phone or how I hadn't eaten anything after lunch in pane. I was so concentrated that I didn't even notice Yoongi-hyung or Namjoon entering the room. I woke up from my trance when Namjoon touched my shoulder and said: "Hoseok-hyung, what are you doing?" I almost fell from the chair I was sitting on. I quickly closed twitter and said: "I just found something interesting."

"I thought you were going to make your mixtape. And by the way, what was that interesting? You practically couldn't remove your sight from the screen." Yoongi-hyung asked. I shrugged. "I was making it but after some time I wanted to dance little. And then I found this." I easily lied. "And it was really nothing that much." Namjoon looked at me. "It wasn't anything? Hyung, like Yoongi-hyung said, you couldn't get your eyes off it. Show it to us so we would also have interesting things to talk about." 

"I can't show it to you, because I can't find the site anymore." It was good excuse but Yoongi-hyung looked suspicious. "I can." He said and opened twitter site from history. Both him and and Namjoon read some tweets and looked shocked. "How can they? How can people write so bad things about you? Don't believe them hyung. They are all wrong." Namjoon said and looked at me eyes full of pity. I didn't want his pity. I hated people pitying me. "Namjoon, you can't say that. It's their opinion and everyone's opinion matters. Many people thinks like that and because of that there must be something truth about it. You can't always be right." Namjoon looked flustered but now Yoongi-hyung said: "This time he is right. Those people are are wrong and you can't let them under your skin."* 

"Of course I won't let them under my skin, hyung. Why would I? This time I don't understand you. But what I really meant, those people can have their opinions too. And it won't matter, because should I feel something when people who I haven't never even met do't like me. I don't really just care." 

Yoongi-hyung and Namjoon looked amazed by my answer. I was hoping that they wouldn't talk about it anymore and was glad when they actually didn't. "Okay then. Let's go back to dorm now hyungs. And Hoseok-hyung, you should go to shower and eat something." Namjoon said and headed out. I collected my things and followed soon after him. 

At car I put my headphones on and listened to music ignoring others. One thought stayed in my mind. 

What should I think?

* I  don't know if it's adverb in English but in Finnish it is. It means something like don't let them get you or don't let it bother you. 

AUTHOR NOTE: 

Like I promised. 

As you can see, these chapters have been pretty much fillers. I wan't to write those because I want that you can really understand what Hoseok's situation is. 

Ah and I'm truly thankful for you somehow digressing here and reading this story until this point. (Although no one probably reads author notes haha.) Feel free to comment. I would love some feedback about story or whatever what's in your mind. 

THANK YOU FOR READING<3

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