More Than Friends

chapter 1

...One year later...

I looked at the cleaning supplies. Most filled with bleach, most full of water, and others some fancy kind of alcohol no one knows how to pronounce. I sigh loudly. I looked around the isle to make sure no one else heard it.

I grab some clorox wipes and throw it in the cart. I push it forward into the dairy section. I look back at the isle then back at the milk. Why the hell are they so close? I shake the thought out of my head and grab some Vanilla Almond Milk. I throw that in the cart as well.

I start humming a random song as I walk down to the bread isle and get some wheat bread. And just like the rest, I throw it in the cart. My phone starts to ring and I look down at it.

Mom.

I sigh and hang up. I cant bare to speak to her. Even though me and Jonah are done, it still hurt that she thought of me that way. I looked down at my ring. Its been a year and I still cant bare to take it off again. I didnt even fully promise to him that I would, but some part of me cant take it off.

I start to fiddle with it. Twirling it and spinning it around my knuckle. I trace my thumb over the white lettering. The paint had started to fade but you can still read it clear as day. I read it over and over.

I had thought about calling Jonah or seeing him. But the day I said I was going to, I looked on social media and saw him with some other girl. Jonah had moved on, and id hoped I did too.

My phone started to ring again. I look down and see Corbyns name pop up.

Bailey: hey corbs
Corbyn: hey bailey, whats up?
Bailey: im in the grocery store. Pretty lit.
Corbyn: oh, what store?
Bailey: walmart, why?
Corbyn: uh, bailey, I think you sould try to get out of there as fast as you can.
Bailey: what why?
Corbyn: just trust me. Just go pay for your stuff and go to another store. I dont mean to sound like a dick, but im just watching out for you.
Bailey: why, whats going on?

Just then my cart hit someone elses and I figured out why corbyn wanted me to leave. My stomach flipped and my heart began racing. I knew if it was gonna beat any faster it would pop out of my rib cage.

I hadnt been in this situation ever in the past year. And now that im looking at him, I dont think I can just back away. I tried to hide my feelings but I couldnt stop crying at the thought of him. No, not now I cant.

I would cry at night, enough to know that I had some sort of feeling. And to know the feelings were still there. But soon they would just dry up and I wouldnt feel anything anymore. I stopped caring about things like I used to, stopped trying to stay in contact with people. No, I just let my world crumble under me and I did nothing to stop it.

Because, then I didnt care anymore.

But now, they all came rushing back at me. I didnt know what I felt, its been so long. Am I happy? Mad? Upset? Confused? Oh yeah, im definitely confused. But what was I supposed to do. All I can do know is stare.

So I did. I stared, unable to move. The broad figure towering over me and I feared of what was going to happen. I should just run. No, then id look stupid. I should just apologize and turn around and get out of there as quickly as possible. But my mouth wouldnt move.

"Hey Bailey," he said. I gulped and stood up straighter.

"Hey." I needed to leave. And I thought a year would be enough for me to move on but I didnt. Hes still there in my head every morning when I wake up. I look over next to me and no one would be there. Or when I go out to eat, I can only picture the time he gave me my promise ring. I would be sitting in McDonald's crying because of that.

Hes got me fucked up in the head; and I didnt know it until now.

Jonah was still on my mind.

So this is chapter one, probably is shit but oh well, itll get more interesting later on. I just wanted you to know what was going on through her head. And im thinking I should have a lot of these chapters in jonahs pov.. what do you think?? Okay, make sure to check out my jack avery fan fiction. Love yaaaa!!!!!!!!!